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Its all too much.I hate how ibam.I wanna be pretty n thin more than anything.all i think about is suicide.23 f, cutter for 2 years everyday, cant stop.make the pain stop. (link)
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I hated myself with a passion from age 13 through 17. I struggle with depression every day, and in those years, I struggled with thoughts of suicide every day.
But I'm finding that as I've become an adult and am coming into my own, and I gain more and more control over my own life, things are getting easier and the good is finally starting to outweigh the bad.
Through your teenage years, whatever real problems you have will be made to feel worse because your body is flooding you with hormones, and it will continue to do this until you're an adult.
I understand it feels like it will never end. I felt that way too...but you can't possibly be a teenager forever. And it's only FIVE little years out of your ENTIRE life. The rest of your life will be worth surviving a harsh five years.
Also please stop cutting. I also used to do that... I regret it very much now because I hate the scars. If you must make yourself feel physical pain for relief, please do something that doesn't cause permanent damage. I whipped myself across the back with a power cord once (omg it hurt a lot), but it didn't scar or bruise me, and it worked even better than cutting.
I myself am also neither pretty nor thin...but one day all the pretty and thin people will get old and lose that themselves. Also, SOMEONE out there will think you're pretty, and that someone will be all that matters.
I know life hurts, but buckle down and weather the storm. You can get through it. Don't let it get the best of you, don't let it destroy you, and don't let it make you bitter. Come out the other side with a beautiful mind, and that will make you a beautiful person no matter what you look like on the outside.
I know I don't know you, and I know we'll never meet, but we're a kindred spirit, and I love you for that. Hang in there.
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how do i stop?i really do not kknow
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