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Ok so I'm 12 and I really need help.
I get red and my down there hurts when I eat something that has sugar in it. So I'm going to the doc's about that. Also I don't have my red-gift as we(me my mom and older sister) call it. But that's not what this is about. Ok some time in this house you fell that if you don't have something that you don't belong or something. My Mom had her red-gift by 11. My sister 10.I was 10yr old and one day my sister was telling me about something that happen to her that day. A boy said that: she should put a nicer look on her already nice looking face. And that he would talk to her later. So she said he seem nice. And I said if that was her "dream boy" what would she do? She said shed see him all the time and he will say he love's her and she will say it back. And they will make out and... But then I said how would she do that if she did not know how? Then she said that she was not even as old as I was when Mom talk to her about sex. I was like: How come she did not talk to me? My sister said she will ask. And then she came back from asking and said that Mom said that she will tell who want to tell when she want's to tell it. I got mad but did not do anything. Then sometime later when I thought I just had to have a red-gift you know what dumb thing I did? I put my finger up there. I got blood. But I stop a few moths later. Thinking that I should stop faking my so called"red-gift". Now that I know more about sex(I look it up on the computer) I think it was virginity blood. Can you lose your virginity with your finger? I also found out why my Mom did not tell me about sex. She was talking on the phone. YES! I was snooping! It did not start out that why. I was walking past the room. Heard something and stopped. Too make it shorter I will just tell you the facts. My Mom only tolled my sister is because she wanted her to know that the ups and down's to sex. Even thou my sister was just 10 then(before she got her gift thou)My Mom thought that she might go out and do it. And by tell her that ups and that downs she'd hoped my sister would wait. Because boy's were always were hitting on my sister. Always. And My sister is boy crazy .I'm not. I fell that there are better things to do then go boy-crazy(not trying to be mean boy's.That's just how I fell.) I might say : that boy is cute. But if I see there butt I don't even think about what I have just seen.I sometime feel like if Mom had said something to me about sex I would have waited for my gift. I would have know.Now I know about that stuff it's to late. Then some time I fell that Mom was just doing what she thinks is best. And what I did has nothing to do with what she did. Right? Or not? Help!

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