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My boyfriend is 20. The reason why I call him my boyfriend, is because we recently broke up but we still act like a couple. So here's the story...

I actually texted him asking if he was disappointed because I didn't kiss him all day because he came over to my sister's apartment and we ate dinner. And he said that I was really sharp and that he was disappointed, and that he was actually looking forward to it. So he confirmed that I was moving on. I was like, "I thought that's what you wanted, you would be more relieved." And he was like, "yeah but it would be upsetting honestly." And I actually told him that I was hoping that he would do it instead because I always had to make the first move. He said that he wasn't sure if he should or not, because he thought that it would eventually lead to sex. I was like, "I'm on my period...." How could it lead to sex when I'm on my period. -__-"

So I also saw him this morning before he went to work. He laid next to me for a while, and he asked me the most funniest questions ever. "Do you wanna kiss?" my response was, "what?? I didn't think people usually ask." And later on he forgot about it. I felt bad because he was hugging me and I wasn't really acting like anything. So I turned around and hugged him. Guess what? He kissed me. I got that feeling, you know that feeling when you're happy? My heart literally felt like it fell into my stomach or something, and it was beating really fast. After he kissed me, he went back to hug me and it was just silent, but comfortable. And then I was like, "are you happy now?" And he was like, "about what?" And I was like, "nvm... I thought you were happy. lol" And he just kissed me again and smiled.

I feel bad, because he said that he wanted to have sex kinda. But he told me that even if I wanted it, reject him because of "man's integrity or man's pride"?? something like that. He says that he would draw a line when it comes to our relationship, such as not acting like a couple and stuff. He says that he will become that person. So he may draw the line again (his 3rd time). Do you really think he is if he already crossed the line 3 - 4 times??

Later on we went to go eat frozen yogurt, it was cold. And he offered just to eat outside, he didn't hold my hand, or kiss me afterwards. He was kinda acting... Cold hearted again.

So I was really upset, but I didn't show it. And then when we were driving back I just looked around and he was like, "Can I call you big eyed beauty for now on??" And he goes, "pear face beauty.... Round face beauty. Round eyed beauty.. etc." And when he dropped me off at my house, I forgot what happened but I remember that I said, "NUH UHH... You didn't hug me when I was cold." and he was like, "my work place was really hot so I was enjoying the cool air." And I was like, "you barely held my hand... etc." And I wasn't paying attention to his excuses. And he was like, "okay come here." And he tried pulling me towards him to give me a kiss and a hug. But I just sat there not wanting to move. And he was like, "okay. fine." And I left.

There was a conversation in the car when I was like, "what would you do if my job was to stand outside of an athletic store, advertising while wearing my bikini?" And he was like "I wouldn't do anything about it, but I would mind though." And I told him at the yogurt place that he lost some points from me because he wouldn't hug me, and he was like "haha, ok." like it was nothing! He's good at hiding his feelings so I wasn't sure if he was bothered by it, upset because of it, or he really didn't care. Or maybe he thought I was joking?? HELP!

I'm gonna tell you the truth, but you're not gonna want to hear it. First of all, you are acting a little like a needy ten year old, and second of all, you're expecting him to read your mind, and be all romantic and snuggly, but you're not willing to give him the same. It's like everything with you is this constant need to keep proving he cares, and then when he does that, there's something else he's supposed to do to prove he cares, yet again, except you don't tell him he was supposed to do it until you're upset that he hasn't done it. Think about how you would feel if you had to deal with a person who was always questioning, who analyzed every little detail, and needed constant reassurance. It's way too much work, and even worse, it makes you come off like you're so insecure and needy.
It seems to me like either he really just doesn't care about you like you want him to, and you are refusing to accept it, or he really does care about you, but and you just can't deal with it so you are sabotaging your relationship. You know which one it is, so just be honest with yourself.

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(Rating: 3) I understand where you're coming from. But the reason why you received a 3 is because my friends and I have both noticed that he never really tells me anything. He hates it whenever I ask him to do something, or to talk things out. And I actually put 100% into the relationship, when he doesn't put much in. My sister says he's used to the fact that I do all of the work, and he's not doing anything so I would have to sometimes act like I stopped trying. Therefore; he actually starts talking to me.
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