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Hey I am Nicole and I love giving advice. I am great at giving advice about your love life and pretty much anything else. If you ever need a helping hand or feel like you just need to talk to someone I will always be willing to help out.

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A year ago I felt beautiful. It was the first time in my entire life that I actually felt beautiful. I had a boyfriend that thought I was the most beautiful girl in the universe. Since we've broken up, things have changed.

About a month ago I looked at my legs, a part of me which I had grown to adore, and saw these hideous limbs staring back at me. It was like overnight they had become fat and ghastly.

That's not even the worst part though.

Two weeks ago I swore I had started to lose weight. I knew I had been eating like half of what I would normally eat a day (I've just finished school and work starts later in the evening so I don't feel hungry till later and sometimes I'll only end up eating like two meals). I put on a skirt I had bought earlier in the month and it was a bit looser around me.

Anyway, over the weekend I went to a bar/club for the first time since I had just turned 18. I went with two girlfriends of mine. When I walked in my hair had been trashed by the rain but I still felt confident and happy. About two hours into the night after my friends had been picked up a few times and I hadn't even been looked at by a guy I still felt good because they were having a good time and I still love my ex boyfriend so I'm not looking for another guy at the moment.

Anyway, this guy who was sort of DJing came over to us and started having a conversation with my two friends. He didn't even look up at me, not even to just be polite. He completely avoided me at all costs. I just stood there awkwardly for like 15 minutes sipping my drink while he chatted them up. It really crushed me. When I go out I don't expect guys to look at me or pick me up, but I have never felt so insulted by someone before. It was like he gave one look at me and because I'm not attractive he just couldn't bare to look at me again. I'm not even overreacting, he didn't even bother to ask my name or greet me in any way, he knew I was with them since he had been watching us talk all night and because I was standing right next to them.

It wasn't that he was picking them up and not me, it was that he found me so disgusting he wouldn't even acknowledge me. I haven't been in a great place since me and my boyfriend have broken up, I just feel ugly and unwanted all the time, and that was just the final blow that has broken me a part.

It sounds so petty and ridiculous but it was just so humiliating and awful. He gave me this look when he first came over and I smiled at him, it was just this "why are you even looking at me" glare before he quickly avoided my eye contact and refused to look at me again. He even followed my friends downstairs when we had found a seat and kept going with their conversation without acknowledging me. I've never met someone who has been so horrible like that, other guys that knew a few friends of mine were there and they were polite enough to even just smile and wave or say hello when they were interested in my friends just out of common courtesy.

Since that night, I can't find anything pretty let alone beautiful about me. I can't imagine anyone ever thinking I'm beautiful again, and it hurts to know that. I feel like in a few short days I've gained all that weight back even though I haven't been eating more, my skirt is even tighter than it was now. Could the change in the way I see myself have changed my physical appearance?

I'm not really sure what I'm asking for with advice, I want to know how my body could have changed so much but then I want to know how guys can be so horribly cruel to women who aren't pretty? I want to know why guys have to be so repelled by me when I'm nothing but nice to them and a happy person. This was mostly because I feel so terribly upset right now and wish I could talk to someone about it.

Thank you to anyone who listened.

yes it is all how you look at yourself. Just because you had a boyfriend didn't make you prettier it made you FEEL prettier. When your boyfriend left you lost his attention and therefor your confidence too.but really you have always been pretty it's just how YOU see yourself. Don't let one night at a bar ruin your life. There are many fish in the sea. Not always are guys going to find you attractive that's just life. I bet you that guys were probably looking at you but they could see you weren't confident. Also you were probably to busy looking at the negative things to notice the positive things. Forget about guys for a while try gaining confidence and self estesm and you will see you will feel great and find a great guy. Always remebed you are beautiful. :)

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(Rating: 5) That was really wonderful advice :) Thank you.
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