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it's just too hard. i've wanted to kill myself for ages. i mean i remember standing in front of the mirror when i was seven and think how nice it would be if i was dead. this can't be normal. and aside from the fact that i am totally screwed up, i have no friends, no talent, no family. there is no one who loves me, and yes, i am sure of this, BELIEVE ME. see as well as being depressed, i have this thing. it's a form of escapsism, really. i basically pretend to live in a different life, soemtimes it a futrue i hope that i could have had if i didn't kill my self. but then it like reality hits and it all comes crashing down. i know it not healthy, but can't i just live in my world? at least im happy there. i know i have to face reality, and postphoning my inevitable suicide, is pointless, but i just like it there. it makes me think that im normal, though, obviously im not. im not on here, because, 'obviously im just crying out for attention, and i don't really want to kill my self', so don't bother with that crap, i know, i've given advice to people as well okay. and don't say that someone must love me, or there's soemthing i must look forward to. even my fasasies are way too exetreme to be possible. the advice i want is simple,( and answer honestly, because either way, i WILL DIE, so deal with it): should i fantasise more and commit suicide, just a tiny bit more happier, or should i just kill my self, and spare myself any more pain? please, don't be stupid or naiive about this. i don't care about god. i don't care about the right to live, i don't care about thereapy. i just came on here for some advice. and if you do try and give me some crap rather than answer it, then thanks a lot. you should just let me suffer by myself, rather than mislead me. it not like im not trying hard enough to get by as it is, okay? (link)
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Im glad you have decided to think about killing yourself tomorrow and not today? giving yourself the opportunity to find a solution is the greatest hope you have given yourself, know this that you are a champion but you need to believe it to be it..life is hard but compare to what?!! I can understand why you feel so low but giving yourself the opportunity to solve your problem is in my opinion something to admire. We have always admirerd the greatest minds for the incredible impact in their problem solving skills. You might fantizise about death and you never know maybe your area of expertise could be in death, forensic scientist, Coroner, Mortician, embalmer there are so many talents that even though you may have not yet realized but they are in you, you just need to learn how to bring them out as safely as possible. If you truly are ready to give up and not deal with a life that many would love to live then no matter what anyone here says will impact you. Your god may have failed you but who was your god? was it you yourself that thought you could accomplish it all? whas is your family? your looks that failed you? or has it been that you never had a god and never gave God the opportunity? Im not encouraging religion because that wont save you, but what is it that you beleive? In life you will never be able to control anything... friends, family, money hell even sex but you can control one thing and that is your Attitude and if your attide is to beleive that you are not a winner then you are that.. not a winner but if your attitude is to know that you cant win everything but that you will win then you have just turned everythign around. You are a Champion..now start living like one.
I hope this helps
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i don't wanna give myself a chance. like i said. i just want to die.
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