I'm Kathryn but most call me KD. I'm a 16 year old sophomore. I'm rare to come by seeing that I try to solve everything I can for others before myself. I am very honest and I don't lie to make anything seem not as bad as it honestly is. I give suggestions that I myself would do if it were in my case.
I may ask for help or someone's opinion on a personal matter but don't feel bad if I do more for you than you do for me. I don't let people in. My words should tell you exactly what kind of person I am without a picture to second guess.
I'm the type of person who will fall so someone else can stand. I won't stop helping people until the day I die because I know what it is like to be in need of something and no one is there for you.
Don't ever be afraid to send me a message even if it isn't serious. There is only one kid of help to me. The kind that is given at all.
If you can't find me, I'll be walking in the door when the rest of the world walks out.
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Thank you,
-KD
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Age: 15
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I recently became aware that I might've been raped. I don't remember much from the night but there is a possibility. While that scares me a lot, but after I found that out, I've become a lot more sexual, and for lack of a better word horny. =/
And this is the kicker, what turns me on the most are like fantasies about being raped and things like that.
Is this completely crazy? How can I go back to the way I was before all this happened? I mean, I know that I can't but at least stop thinking about this stuff. Also, is there a way to tell if you were raped or not? I've had sex since then, so I don't know. I mean, it upsets me but sometimes I think I'd rather not know... (link)
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Well any evidence of rape is clearly gone. But what you can do is follow up with the people that were..wherever this may have taken place.
Sometimes not knowing is better but clear ignorance isn't. This is a serious matter [[I know thanks for pointing that out captain obvious, right?]] but if you can talk to people that were at that place, then you can narrow it down to almost certainty. Then if you do find out that the sad possibility is true, you need to have them arrested with a witness. If the person did it to you, they will do it to someone else because they didn't get caught.
And there is always a possibility someone knows what happened but hasn't come forward with it. Just have to have hope I imagine.
What I think you should do is try to find out what happened. If you do, your emotional needs for sexual encounters may decrease because you know the truth. This would make you stronger. Maybe feel worse, but mentally make you stronger due to the idea you have the correct knowledge of what really happened [[Even though death would seem to be better, don't let the weak win]]. But if you get ideas there after talking to people that were there at this "social interaction" as I may refer to it, you need to tell someone.
But other than finding out what really happened, you have to stay strong about not going with other guys/men/girls/women whoever you maybe. I'm not into smoking but as a comparison, A smoker may want to quit but can't just do it with a thought. It takes time and resistance and the urge to really stop. Like gum, find something that keeps you occupied. Try art, try writing. Something that gets it out of your system.
As for the rape fetish, I think it maybe on the lines of some normal...I think. I'm not specialized in that stuff but it might just be a pleasurable thing for you.I think as long as if you were being raped you wouldn't all of a sudden enjoy it.
But if it just started after that night, I would seriously think you may have something stored in your mind that you maybe can't release or you don't really TRULY know what happened. If you're in denial get out of it, because it MAY uncover something. As harsh as that sounds I'm sorry. But if you are the only way you can find out for sure is to accept that 50/50 chance that you were.
I'd like to help further but I don't have much information to go off.
I'm sorry if you find out that you might have been. I'm here if you ever need more help.
-KD/f/15
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thanks a lot. this really helped me.
=)
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