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Bulimia and Anorexia are both serious and life threatening disorders, the problem is you have described some symptoms which over lap and others which should rule out each diagnosis. At 5’7” weighing in at 131 pounds, it is concerning for you to see yourself as being chubby, your over exercising is another concern, as well as your feelings of guilt and depression when you feel you have eaten too much.
Disorders like anorexia and bulimia as symptoms of a bigger issue, most commonly a fear of rejection or a pronounced need for acceptance. With the popular media constantly depicting “sexy” people, especially women, as being skinny, it would make sense that someone with acceptance issues will attempt to model themselves after a popular image.
In response to your question, my first advice will be for you to see a therapist; I imagine and hope that your mother and sister already are seeing therapists. Secondly, accept yourself unconditionally. Regardless if you see yourself as being chubby, give yourself the self love you deserve, if you feel your stomach is full, pat your self on the back, no one should go hungry. The way to stop your obsessing and guilt associated with eating is to change your beliefs about body images. For example, you can practice telling yourself “chubby people can be sexy too,” (even though I think you’re skinny).
Most importantly, you should see a therapist.
Take care,
P.S 1000-3000 calories a day is a significant difference. I wouldn’t recommend going below 1600 calories per day.
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