I go by Ahnee, to some. and you.
I live in Orange County CA, and it's not as great as it seems. it's just as shady as everywhere else but we're polite enough to keep it behind closed doors. Great.
I'm in highschool.
I have an opinion on just about EVERYTHING, but won't give it to you unless you ask.
I talk to people.
Sometimes i can just be a brutally honest bitch, don't ask me a question you don't want a real answer to. I refuse to coat my thoughts in sugar
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Gender: Female
Location: OC
Member Since: November 4, 2006
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I'm a teenage girl and I'm always alone- i'm not kidding. I'm homeschooled so that's why.(and i'm the only dependent minor in my family) I used to go to a prep school where I was around annoying people 24/7, and i hated that. But this makes me depressed too. Never being around anyone. my problem is this:
Whenever I get tired of being completely alone and I go out in public for a rehearsal or something (i do theater), I can't stand being around unintelligent sluts who don't understand me and just ask me why i look so sad and things like that. I get panic attacks whenever I try to talk to someone (unless it's one of my 2 best friends in the whole world) and i start sweating and I turn red and my heart starts pounding. and it gets too awkward and i have to make an escape.
I'm very well-spoken and i couldn't call myself "shy" but i still feel reclusive because i just don't really get along with other people. I've thought it was because of my intelligence being significantly above average. (been professionally tested) So I "notice things that no one notices" which makes me "unusual". (that was something stated word for word in my testing document thing)
It's like everyone else is a bunch of cows in a heard that looks exactly the same and does the same thing, and I'm a completely different species, who doesn't see the need to be in that heard. (if that makes sense)
I also battle depression- and I always have. It's not from any particular event- it's just always sort of been there. and i can't change it.
What is wrong with me? (link)
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nothing's wrong with you hun you're just not another one of the sheep, congrats actually. I know where you're coming from, i was the same kid. This is gonna sound really lame but the internet helps a lot. Even myspace, just talking to people in your area into the things you're into. But as for what you're gonna do when you get around those people is different. I think you'll be more at ease if you feel more understood. As for the depression, maybe it's just clinical, there's always depression/anxiety medication for all that but that'll probably make you more lost than you started out with. I'd suggest getting checked out for that.
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Thank you SO much! You can never know how much you helped me! I have come back to the site to help other people like you have helped me.
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