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i think there's something wrong. its as if i have forgotten how to cry. nothing phases me anymore. i dont show any emotion just laugh at everything at school. at home all i want to be is alone. i dont eat unless im totally alone and i dont watch tv unless alone. after school i come home and 'hide out' as my mother calls it in my room. i think about the way ive made so many mistakes and how i wanna roll back time and how i deserve so much punishment and how i should be perfect and need to lose weight. anorexia right now. i need help just tell me whats wrong or what i can do u think.? inside im so dark and want to nearly kill myself sometimes but the outside of me shows nothing. i cannot CRY! (link)
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I hated that whole "not being able to cry" thing when I suffered from it a few months ago. You actually sound JUST like me a few months ago. (exept for the whole anorexia thing)
Here's the bottom line: you are severely depressed. You don't need to see a doctor or anything- they'll just give you some crap that won't help you in the long run. Get 30 mins to an hour of exercise a day (i'm talking about REAL exercise- like sweaty, hardcore stuff that gets your heart pumping fast) and start taking a multivitamin EVERY SINGLE DAY (i'd reccomend "one-a-day women's"). eat more in general.
You also MUST change your outlook on life. Try to think of the good things in life in general- that is the first step to overcoming depression.
Do things that you enjoy if you feel like you just want to go into your room and cry but you can't- do something fun. anything. it really doesn't matter what.
get enough sleep every night.
I truly hope this helps- just remember to keep holding on because the purpose of life is to LIVE. if you are living- you are already fulfilling your purpose. Try to live every day to the fullest. You are only here while you're here.
p.s:
if you do not already have faith in a higher power, I suggest you become a Christian. you'll be happier if you have a real realtionship with the lord Jesus Christ. (think of Christianity NOT as a religion, but as a RELATIONSHIP.) it might take you a while to figure out what that means if you aren't already saved. (by God)
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yes thx again and yes i am a christian just a little blurred by a lot right now. u helped thnx
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