Yes, my girl dumped me. I no longer have to be in denial that someday will be back together, giving up, gave 100% of myself, just an empty shell left behind. So ? What to do? How to move on?
I dont spend any time alone at home.Not at all. I do not get drunk or take anything. I go everywhere, clubbing cinema, every single day found my self a great girl, hot sexy and smart. Only many times I kind of...mix her name with my ex's, I sometimes just want to walk away alone from everyone, I...cry every now and then...when I acomplish stuff I think I am doing it for my ex.
My friends talk to me as if nothing important is going on while I am really dying on the inside (and the outside,lost a lot of weight). It really is the end of the world for me. I think that good times will come again but unfortunatelly, I cant believe it. I think about her all the time, dont sleep at night cause of her, I put twice the effort to accomplish stuff in my job cause I think of her, I know she will not come back.
My brain is killing me, it is just stuck, thinking over the same things again and again. Thinking about it so much, that late night, I can really listen to my thought in my ears. It is crazy, it is my brain going in circles and I am listening to it, I hear my though...but...crystal clear.
There are 2 ways to end this, none of them will do. One is taking pills, fuck them I dont need them, other is killing myself, no way out of the question I got to make money in my life. I ve taken new hobbies kept myself busy.
Well, i am sorry I think I did not leaveanything for you to advice me. Maybe some online support group where I can find people like me? You know that circle people make and hug each other,only online.
Aww po baby SORRY 4 YOUR PAIN but down to the point. It i not the end of the wourld for you .you justthink it is an the more you think aout it teh more obsessd yo become with thinking about her..you neeed closure or sumthn just once and tell her how you feel; if she takes you back or not you still accomplished a greed task on moving forward because you have all that emotion bottled in you and you need to let it out..by telling her your last feelings about her..just to get it out of your head and hunting you from your sleep.and then you could maybe focus on you and your new realationship and all adn not so much on her..i will say it is not easy but you gotta commit to it and get rid of you rthoughts by teling youe ex... thats one big step to take ..get back to me..
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I also have strong feelings for the girl I am with now. I dont love her yet but I can love her eventually. Its just that I still feel kind of damaged from the girl before. I mean the fact that I have moved on myself and it is all over is kind of sad. She does not have a new boy yet and I hope that by the time she has one, I will not care.
The funny part is that there was a misunderstanding once we were together, before I really fell in love with her, I though she already had someone else before she met me and I was really sad. But if it ended there, it would be much easier. I mean I remember how sad I was when I thought thats its over then, and how sad I felt when it was really over and...there was a huge huge huge difference. I never wanted to be the one to make her cry, but upsetting her when we talk kind of makes me feel happy since I feel that I still have the power to mess with her feelings. If she really did not care at all, then she would simply forget all about me and...shit am I going back to her? It is clear that I have not moved on .
anyways enough said I am not making any sense anyways.
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