I'm 22, and my biggest regret from high school was that at precisely sophomore year, I decided doing things with my friends and dating were more important than my GPA and my future. I didn't have the option of going to a great school, like you, but still, loads of opportunities were thrown my way that I simply blew off because I kept thinking, I'm 16, you know, I don't want to miss this game, that party, or the possibility of seeing this guy at this particular event...I stressed because I always thought I was missing out on something fun. Junior year, everyone I'd gone to school with since kindergarten began to hate each other and seperated off into what seemed like smaller and smaller groups until senior year, and then we all just sort of floated around the halls with senioritis, doing our own thing. I would've felt the same way you do now, not wanting to leave them, but the truth is- after you graduate, they're gone anyway. Some are able to keep friendships between 2 or 3 people, it is possible, but not typical. Point is, you'll have to leave them eventually, why not now? At least that way you won't have to see them at each other's throats junior year and be wondering what the hells happened to everybody. You'll make friends at this new school (everyone wants to know the new girl), you'll have a clean slate, and I'm sure there will be plenty of guys there and *bonus*- they could be more intelligent, or at least be more on top of their lives and what they want to do with them. Thats pre-judgement, yes, but I'd always wondered what it would be like to go to a really great school with an excellent curriculum. All we had was the bare minimum to get by, everything else was sports. All we had to offer in the guy department were big, steroid given bodies with meat for heads. Meatheads, you see.
So you were excited about the new school at first, but now that you've gotten the chance you're not sure. Sounds like you're just scared. Change can be scary. But its natural. You'll have experiences similiar to your first day at new school for the rest of your life- first day at a new job, etc. So go ahead and throw yourself in there, get used to it. Push yourself to be better and not let fear take this opportunity away from you. You know you'll be glad when you're 22.
As far as your crush goes, if you stay, of course, and you were right about his feelings, you'll be able to see him whenever and it could be great. If you go, I'd let him go as well. Its hard to chaulk something up to what might've been, but it would seem kinda neive to get into a somewhat long distance relationship with a guy who openly flirts with other girls in front of his girl-friend. If you two were to make it exclusive, just think what he might do, when you're not there to catch him. I mean, would it bother you, not being able to see him a lot and knowing that he's a flirt? Maybe one of your old girlfriends could keep an eye on him for you! Sounds like a not-so-ideal way to have a relationship, and probably once you're around all those new guys for awhile, you'll want to drop him as soon as possible, anyway.

With all this said: I absoloutely think that you should chainsaw whats tying you down to your old school and beat up whichever good, old, friends are begging you not to go(aka,holding you back)- just kidding, assure them you can keep in touch, and get a better education. If given the choice, ALWAYS choose a better education. Don't settle now for friends and boys who are probably only going to be around for approximately 3 and half more years of your life. Hope this turns out to be an easy decision for you!

Peace,

Shade

Thank you alot!!

Hi, I'm Shade. I'm an artist, living in sin in a small town, hopping from job to job, and recieving no support from my family. I was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder when I was 18. I've suffered through many, many, many bouts of depression, panic attacks and just plain fun ole' anxiety. Since I left my Mom's house years ago, I've lived a lot of places and met a lot of strange, horrible, and beautiful individuals. I've learned a lot about people in general and I'd have to say I'm a good judge of character.
As mentioned earlier, I'm "the artist currently known as starving". I do some oil and watercolor, but mostly acrylic painting, also some clay and metal sculpture. I appreciate all kinds of art and love to talk about it. I like to read, mostly twisted, weird fiction or memoirs about drugs and the fellow insane. I love all types of music, mostly rock, and doing anything outdoors, all my animals, horror movies, and mexican food...I drive an old, crappy, loud car that embarasses me and I just left my job at the art gallery, so as of right now, I am unemployed, livin' off my man.

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