Ask Eissac!

Well I'm 16/f.
Sorry this one is kind of long.

Well I really need to let go of my past but everytime something good happens I think back to how I messed it all up the last time and just get depressed. Well you see, I have quite a few guy friends who when they want to say something to me or get my attnetion they tap me on the shoulder, pat me on the head, or grab my arm loosely. I know they don't mean anything bad by it but it freaks me out since last summer at a camp I went to in Colorado I was hit on and basically molested by a guy I thought was my friend. I had to sit by him on the bus ride (which took basically a whole day) and even though I told him and begged him to stop he wouldn't stop touching me inappropriately.
Well we got off the bus and I told my friend Daniel what happened and Daniel kept the guy away from me but that wasn't the end of it. Later in the week at camp two more guys kept coming up to me and making me sit on their laps and try to give me back rubs and stuff like that. I of course protested but they were way too strong for me to get free and they would cover up my mouth if I tried to speak to someone near us. It was freaking me out. Every night when we finally had to go to bed I would sit up all night wishing that the next day would never come. I talked to my camp leader and she said she'd do all she could to keep them away from me but it never worked. So when I was supposed to be having fun at camp I was always looking around me and wondering when they would hit on me again.

My question is how can I let go of those emories so that I don't get freaked out anymore.???

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