You asked the wrong question. "What can you do to make yourself proud." Is the right one. I know what you are thinking. That is so lame. But...it really isn't. As I see it here (from the sitituaion you've just described) doesn't look like it's going to get any better. So you have to take control of yourself, and realize this. You have to be your own person. Once again, I know this sounds lame. But it's so true. You can't sit here and say your parents screwed you over, and never supported you, or your decisions. Because at the end of the day, you don't have them. You are left with yourself. I'm not saying anything your parents say or do to you is right, because it isn't. And I'm not saying I wouldn't want to smack them either. But happiness is a state of being, a way of mind. You make your own happiness. Surround yourself with people who DO care about you, and DO support you, and that love you for who you are. Don't you dare try and make your parents proud. Kids try and do that all the time, and it's this neverending cycle of doing things you don't want to do to please other people. You have to please yourself. I mean this with my entire heart, because I know what you're going through. Don't listen to what others think say or do. Do what you want. Say what you want. And think whatever you want. Because it's not their life. It's yours. Deal with the hand you've been given. And enjoy it.
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