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I am an 18 year old male and I have been a pretty emotionally dead person for...well since my early childhood. And when I say dead I don't mean depressed or really down or anything of that nature. It's nearly impossible for me to feel anything genuine and I can only put a mask of fakeness on so I don't seem so far out. When I was in a psychology class I read about something called anti-social personality disorder and it almost disturbed me how similar the symptoms were to my own character. I've done enough to put myself away for the better half of my life and I haven't felt a shred of remorse or conscience. Anyways, I'm wondering if my lack of emotion is a cause of concern. Nothing brings me joy, pain, or sorrow and I can't even feel love for my own family anymore. NOTHING will make me feel anything and it bothers me. All I feel like is a body and a brain without a soul. Something is wrong with me but I don't know what. I'm a very intelligent person and all it seems I can do is succeed with material things like work while my relationships are built on false pretenses and emotions I never even felt but acted like I did. My question is: If there is anybody somewhat educated about this...what could be wrong with me? Do I have anti-social personality disorder?...and am I stuck with this? (link)
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Hey,
So I have this same thing. I find it hard to categorize emotions, I do not feel the emotion of 'love' like most of you (even to my family, even though they are all nice people). I am 18 and I don't remember myself being this way, well maybe because I certainly did not think about this ever. But once I got aware of it, I think about it more and more; and now I feel that this is paranoia. I would like to consider myself fairly intelligent, I can have intelligent conversations with people. I get slightly 'vexed'(would be the best word, to describe my situation) at people who infuriate me in a conversation. Also, after realizing that I have this situation I have become anti social for some reason, I don't remember ever being antisocial. Maybe it's just because there is nothing interesting going on in my life, but that is just a hypothesis.
Also, another thing I have realized is that I suffer from a very small attention span and have something similar to amnesia, I have trouble recalling memories. And somehow I remember memories as facts. Thats how I would explain it. They are not memories for me, but mere facts- this and that happened to me on Wednesday.
Does anyone also feel this? Suffering from Amnesia and 'no-emotion syndrome' or whatever they call it?
Another thing, and I might be making all this up. But, I smoked pot like two times and both times I went for a very bad trip. Like it was bad, my mind was racing etc. It was scary and very philosophical. Since then I have given smoking pot, nor do I like to even get drunk. After these 2 bad trip incidents I noticed that I suffer from loss of memory.
Or could it also be that playing too much video games does this to me?
Even as I type this, I am vaguely aware that I am worried. I just write this with neutral feelings.
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