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I think carefully, perhaps compulsively, about everything to the minutest detail. I think for hours, even sometimes throughout most of the night, exploring the intensely intricate details. I can create speeches, dialogues, critical essays, dramas and poems of what seems like stunning beauty and, more importantly, insight, whilst in a carriage of one of my thought-trains, but when I get the urge to put pen to paper—or finger to key—my train of thought is knocked off of its rails, and my writing is either immediately crushed by the falling train—and I stop writing for I know not what to write—, or a limb is sliced off and it bleeds to death (losing all that made it lofty and beautiful with every heartbeat) but not before it turns into something wretchedly lame and therefore it no longer describes all that is lofty and beautiful, but something else. All that was lofty and beautiful (in my thoughts) leaves and I am but left with something that is low and base—the crass, the saddened, the worthless, the sickened—,oh that which I do despise!
But, and here is my problem, I cannot, yet, put the lofty and beautiful into words like I so desire to. There are parts that I have put into words but those words cannot yet be ordered into the lofty and beautiful structure that I desire. Yet, oh yet, I have such a desire to do it. To the point where I must do it! I am so certain that I must do it; for the reason of expression. So why, oh why, can I not yet do it?
Thusly, I wonder, am I doomed to suffer the torment of my thoughts and not be able to write them down as I create them? Or shall I, finally, be able to write down all that is lofty and beautiful, as I discover, or invent, it through my thoughts?
I have been begging for an answer to this question for some time whilst contemplating yet my contemplation has yielded no definite results. So now, I seek the guidance (anonymously) of someone who has been in a similar situation (or someone who is truly wise [read: can empathise, fully, with this]) so that I may learn how to record my thoughts meaningfully. I thank you ever so much for reading this and I do so hope that my question shall not cause you inconvenience. (link)
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Write your abstract ideas and thoughts down either on some scrap notebook paper or whatever, or as comments in notepad.exe. They don't have to be well organized, pretty, or particularly deep. Just core thoughts and concepts that you want to delve into when you get into the actual writing.
What I did for my classes at least, was slowly take those ideas and write out chunks of whatever I had to write, in no particular order to the overall story/essay/etc., and put them into a word document. I'd make it one paragraph per page on average, leaving lots of extra space for me to move things around, add or delete lines/paragraphs, leave comments to myself on why I don't like how a paragraph reads, and so on. From there I'd work on gradually rewording and restructuring what I want the flow of the paper to be.
Give yourself a few days to do this, with lots of breaks in between. Don't try to power through this in one sitting either, I was always came back to see one paragraph look terrible after a night's sleep. The advantage of this is that you get a fresh perspective and can tweak it further until you get to a first draft.
By the way, don't worry about not being able to just pour the contents of your brain out onto a piece of paper (or into a word document). It's often much more involved than that.
Just curious, how long did it take you to write this question? It sounds way too dramatic.
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