Member Since: June 25, 2008
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Last Update: June 28, 2008
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My girl friend recently broke up with me...... i do not want to live any more..... i want to end my life....... she was all i had... she loves me still i know she does... her mom just passed away and she said she needs to be alone....... every day i cry all day. its the only thing i think about...... im 24 and i have never been hurt this bad in my life.so i think i am going to kill my self or badyly injure my self so she will stay with me in the hospital....... i am prescribed methadone, i take 100 mgs a day..... to day i am thinking about taking 700 mgs... dont you think that wil kill me in a quiet way.. if it doesnot kill me i am screwed becausei wont have my medicine and ill be even worse off and suffer withdrawl.. like i said i am prescribed methadone, i am the farthest thing from a drug addict ..... ive been sober for 2 years and this is the first time i have had to deal with my problems with out the use of drugs.. i want to die.. another option i am considering is taking a jog at night wearing all black and just jump in front of a car... i figure more than likely this will not kill me and it will look like an accident according to every one else... i know then my girl will stay by my side.. i am also tempting driving a honda civic into a wall or tree going at least 70 miles an hour.. i want to die, but i dont want to hurt my mom,, if she was not in the picture i would have done it already... so please tell me what you think and dont say shit like o go get help....... dont kill your self... god wont accept you in the after life... thats bull shit.. god will forgive me... i just can not go on with out this girl. please reply quickly.. (link)
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Well no i have not done anything yet... we have been talking more and more... she tells me she misses me non stop.. she tells me she loves me.... but last night i waited around for her to call and she never did.... the other night we were texting each other and then i fell asleep... she called me and i did not answer... she flipped out.. no kidding she called 7x and sent to messages.. she thought i was with some one else.. well you think knowing how it feels to be ignored she wouldn't of done it to me last night.. she would not answer... i just dont get it, she says she needs family time but she is with her friends the whole time.. personnally i just think it is summer and she wants to party.. im 24 and she is 19... i love this girl so much... and ironically last night i was jogging wishing a car would just strike me, and oddly enough right in front of her street a car almost hit me... omg, it would of been so perfect... anyway i am not psycho or crazy, i just do not want to live with out her.. you all do not get it... i want to die.. i just dont want to fuck it up and end paralyzed or something... but i have not got my answer of if i took 700 mg if methadone would i die or what... i believe it would be enough to do the trick... i changed my plan of letting a car hit me.. i have changed it a little bit.. i plan to ride a bike and more or less play chicken with a car. they wont see me i have already taken off the reflectors and have picked out my out fit for the night... i have no desire to live.. i just do not want to hurt my parents... this girl is making no sense... i cant do anything i used to do.. i am so freaking sad........ godddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.. i want to die
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