Member Since: February 5, 2009
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Last Update: February 7, 2009
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i dont even get whats wrong with me most of the time. sometimes, everything will be fine. like, ill be hanging out with my boyfriend and his house or at the store or something. and then suddenly, all my energy and happiness gets sucked out and im up in space and i feel like dying and he keeps asking me whats wrong and i keep telling him nothing. most of the time it is just nothing, but its bringing a wedge in between our relationship.
i love him to death, and i think he loves me, too. but whenever i get upset or depressed, i dont like talking. i just want to sit and stare at something or just lay down and go to sleep. so whenever he says "i love you" i just nod and say "mmhmm" and he thinks im mad at him BUT IM NOT!! these random depressions are ruining everything and im always upsetting him, and upsetting him just upsets me even more.
i tried to tell my parents once that i was depressed but they pulled the old "you're a teenager, its just hormones" gag and so i never tell them anything.
i probably wont kill myself, but i really want to. i was raised christian, and also raised to believe that if i kill myself, i burn. and im afraid of hell.
i think im mostly worried about not being with my boyfriend in the future. hes left me before, and whose to stop him from doing it again? i just cant handle it anymore. and i dont like being a downer. around him, especially.
im 16/f, btw. if anyone has any advice, please share. i dont know what to do anymore. :( (link)
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Hi... I know what you're going through. I am depressed a lot of the time. And I don't tell my mom anything. What you should do is maybe go to your school counselor or maybe one of your . And your boyfriend is a must tell him that you sometimes feel sad some thimes. Also stay away from sharp objects.... trust me I know. Just try do do what you can and if it gets really bad you may want to talk to your doctor... I didn't have a choice. Just do what you think is right. It will all work out. :)
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