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I am an 18 year old male and I have been a pretty emotionally dead person for...well since my early childhood. And when I say dead I don't mean depressed or really down or anything of that nature. It's nearly impossible for me to feel anything genuine and I can only put a mask of fakeness on so I don't seem so far out. When I was in a psychology class I read about something called anti-social personality disorder and it almost disturbed me how similar the symptoms were to my own character. I've done enough to put myself away for the better half of my life and I haven't felt a shred of remorse or conscience. Anyways, I'm wondering if my lack of emotion is a cause of concern. Nothing brings me joy, pain, or sorrow and I can't even feel love for my own family anymore. NOTHING will make me feel anything and it bothers me. All I feel like is a body and a brain without a soul. Something is wrong with me but I don't know what. I'm a very intelligent person and all it seems I can do is succeed with material things like work while my relationships are built on false pretenses and emotions I never even felt but acted like I did. My question is: If there is anybody somewhat educated about this...what could be wrong with me? Do I have anti-social personality disorder?...and am I stuck with this? (link)
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Hi there, I actually think it is beautiful what you have there. You see professional people would probably say you are ill and that I am crazy. Use it as a shield. If you cannot feel betrayal, pain, fear, happiness or love,it doesn't make you a bad person or like what some would call it ANTI-SOCIAL. Socialize with people, but don't let them get to you, and that is the gift you have. You are on this earth to live, experience life and just grow old. Feelings are complicated, and that's what makes life complicated. You see, our thoughts generate feelings, makes us feel. If I well understood, in your case you do not feel anything whatsoever. That is okay, the important thing is to understand that you are living in a world where people create connections. Thats all to life, you treat others like you would want to be treated and respesct people and value the good important things. If you can't feel, then you are a strong person. You do not have to be like everybody else, from what it looks like, (people that are different to you in your surrounding must have questionned your ways of being and couldn't maybe stand the fact that they couldn't control you). When you make people feel things for who they are and what they do, you can anger them, make them sad, question themselves (your case) and worst control them. You cannot be manipulated. You can see past people's true intentions. WHy you may ask or how come? Because there is nothing worst tahn being blind folded by emotions. Our emotions lie to us most of the time in our life. Use your intuition, and be smart and do the right thing in life. The definition of what is right to you. Have your own code, you are gifted. I was wondering, how do you spend days without feeling. That for me would be a breath of fresh air :)
Peace
Reyna
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