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What is the most painless way to commit suicide?....The only thought that provides any degree of solace to me is death. I do not want to live anymore, there is no other way to end the pain. I tried paracetamol in my 20`s (am in 30`s now) and they just pumped my stomach. I fell in love with a married woman (yes I know there was no future) but I just don`t wanna live as the memories are killing me. The memories and love wont go away, despite the fact that she cheated on me. So anyway I have high BP and am being monitored for my heart rate regularly by my Dcotor. I have not taken my prescrption for some time and thank goodness my BP level has risen again but this is not working. I have taken to smoking a shisha pipe as well, so my health is pretty bad right now but it`s taking too long. The thought of death is the only comfort available to me, dpoes anyone understand this? Please just recommend an easy an painless way to die as I am a complete an utter coward, have no career prospects and have no ambition. I am not mentally ill but just want to die. I pray to God every night to take me but thts not working either, so anyone got any advice on the most painless way to commit to kill myself? (link)
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I also have felt like this. I fell in love when I was a teen and couldn't see my life without her. Well when I moved towns she had cheated in me. She disintegrated tell me and three months later she moved in with me and my family and she was pregnant. Absolutely ecstatic I thought life couldn't get better and I was possibly right, until the day she told me that she had cheated in me and our child really wasn't mine. I already believed that the child was mine and couldn't shake the idea. After she had spilled her guts I still stayed with her. Our relationship was hell after that and all I could think about was anger, revenge, my baby girl, and suicide. I later proposed to her thinking it would help our relationship but things only got worse drastically. One night we were arguing and she took off the ring and threw it at me. I couldn't believe it and flipped. I beat her for a time that seemed like an eternity. Her and her unborn child almost died that night. The guilt I felt afterwards was like no other. Suicide wasn't an option anymore it was the only way. Cutting, hanging, pills, traffic jumping. I tried it. Nothing. Either I woke after an eternity of darkness or my brain naturally stopped me. I felt like a complete coward and suicide was my only option to somehow redeem my actions so the ones I loved wasn't hurt by me anymore. I struggled through Highschool. The will to even get out of bed wasn't existent. I finally decided I needed help. Why not? Nothing else seems to work. I went to counseling/Anger Management and after three months I was put on a generic Zoloft and had to survive from there. The pills honestly seemed to have no effects until a month or two later. I was no longer angry or too distant. It helped but just enough to give me a push. After thinking for hours in a dark lonely room I came to the realization that killing myself would be the cowards way out. Obviously the pain was seemed too hard to deal with and I wanted an easy way out. There is none. I struggled for three and a half years and now I finally feel sane. I don't want to die but if it happens, it happens. I love my family too much to hurt them that way. I still to this day feel the guilt of what I had done during those years. I live with it because I am now stronger then I use to be. I am not a coward. I will face what I have done in this life and the next. I'm not afraid. I still love her and the baby girl. Looking into her eyes I know why I keep fighting. She is all I need. Me and her mom are now friends. We are healthy and her beautiful little girl is the smartest little toddler. If you want to die over heart ache just stop. They will never love you if your not strong enough to show them that you fucking matter. Honestly no one wants to be with someone who isn't strong enough because we all need someone to have during our struggles. Someone who will help get through it and if your constantly trying to kill yourself then they will bail. Be the best you can be and they will admire you for it. Life doesn't end after love it comes back with a vengeance. That little girl and my guilt was my reason to strive. I hope that you find yours. God or no god.
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