Member Since: March 28, 2012
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15/f
sorry it's kind of long.
lets just put this out here: i consider myself to be 110% straight. i could never even CONSIDER being with another girl.
another thing, i have never had a boyfriend or kissed anyone. although i've had MANY opportunities to be in a relationship, i've passed them all up. i think i have commitment issues or something, or just a fear of being "trapped" in a relationship.
ONE more thing-i have WAY more guy friends then i do girl friends. I find girls...very annoying and over dramatic, and i try not to get involved in drama. My closest friends are girls, but i get along much better with guys.
anyways, lately, some of my guy friends have jokingly called me prude. they've also told me i was a lesbian. my closest guy friend ASKED in complete seriousness if i was a lesbian (his reason being because i hung out with my best friend alot, who is a girl).
if theres ONE thing i hate, it's being accused of something i'm not. being called a lesbian really makes me upset and angry, and i've made it clear to my buy friends. whenever it comes up, i get quiet or i tell them to knock it off. it's a touchy subject for me.
the other day, i was out to dinner with my mom and my sisters. i told my mom something that was surprising to her, and she says "why don't you just tell me your a lesbian and we'll be all set!" (she said this jokingly) i looked at her and i said "don't joke about that", my natural response. my moms smile fades and she goes "you aren't are you?" and i said "no mom..." and then she was quiet and i started to talk to my sister. when i looked back at her, she was studying me strangely and i asked her what was wrong and she says "you AREN'T, are you?" which made me angry, and i said "MOM, i can't BELIEVE you would even THINK something like that. of COURSE i'm not."
I'm so afraid my mom thinks i actually am a lesbian. because, i mean, it would make sense. never having a boyfriend and all that. my sister TOTALLY didnt help when she said "mom, just because she doesn't have any feelings for guys doesn't make her a lesbian." if there was ever a time i wanted to kill my sister, it would have been then.
It is SO untrue that i don't have feelings for guys. me and my best friend are BOY CRAZY. we think almost every guy we know is either cute or hot. and i have crushes on guys on a regular basis.
it feels like NO ONE (except my best friend) can understand how i feel about all this. it gives me a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach worrying about why people would have to WONDER if i'm straight or not. i've NEVER done anything to make me seem like a lesbian other than the fact that i've never had a boyfriend (and that's more out of fear than no interest in it).
i just really need to know what to do.
please, DON'T give me the "it's OK to have feelings for girls" talk. because if i saw that i think i might cry in frusturation. i DO NOT have ANY feelings WHATSOEVER for stupid girls. thats why i asked this very long question.
it's not exactly something i can just ignore either. so i don't know if that's a good solution.
please, just reading this whole question and answering it with something would be greatly apreciated. it's a very frusturating and confusing situation and it makes me angry and sad.
thanks so much (link)
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Hey I understand how y0u feel when you are being accused of something your not. Like you, I have never had a boyfriend in my life.. it's sad but that's how it is right? anyways,what I think you should do is talk more about boys in front of your guy friends. I do it all the time. They give me advices on what I should do too! Don't be scared of what they're going to say because only what you think is the one that matters.
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