Member Since: February 24, 2012
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I am a single divorced parent of four and very attractive. Although I am a 40 female, I often get "carded" or mistaken as my 20 yr old's sister. My delimma is that I have not been blessed regarding relationships whereas someone loves me as much as I love them. I started attending this huge church three years ago. I have always been active in church in another state. On my first visit, which was business related, the pastor, who was single, made a point to introduce himself to me. I brushed it off because I was seeing someone at the time. Recently, my friends who visits from other churches notice how he stares at me during service in a church of over 1500 members per service. I have noticed that he seeks me out and have constant eye contact. I brushed it off as he does it with everyone to engage them. The final thing that made me wonder was the fact that I was leaving the church and wrote him a letter. That Sunday, he stated, "I got your letter.....don't leave me.....I don't know what I would do if you were to leave." I have also "heard rumors" that he has it bad for me and that is why I am catching hell from other females in the church who have a crush on him.
I am beginning to have feelings sub consciencly. I don't know if I've been attracted all the while as was subpressing my feelings or if it is curiousity. The problem is that I think about him all the time. I am in a relationship with a wonderful man, but I don't love him as a significant other, only as a "best friend". He wants more. On the other hand, my pastor is communicating more with me and inviting me to dinner functions that are only suppose to be for church board members or deacons.
My pastor has even appointed me to key positions in the church, which makes me feel awkward because I want to earn positions based on my talent, not becuase of favor.
Although I am thinking of him all the time, I also have butterfiles when he is near and become speechless. I have noticed the same behavior from him. He compliments me every Sunday. This feeling is getting worst and I did not have these feelings at first.
My question is, should I pursue him, although he has never been married and doesn't have any children? How will the church look at our relationship? How do I "ask him out"? How do I truly find out if I am not reading into things? How do I get him off my mind? If we date, how do I save my friendship with two of my best friends who are "madly" in love with him? Please help!
Lonnie44
Atlanta (link)
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I am curious Lonnie44, what ever became of the "relationship" between you and your pastor. I ask because pretty much everything you described above is what I am going through in a nutshell.
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