Member Since: April 22, 2011
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hello,
my name is kelsey and i am 13 years old....ive been a cutter for as long as i was 11 or so. i cut for many reasons...my moms ex....was a mager alcohalic..and one night he cam into my bed room..and he was toaching me in ways i didnt like..i was only 8 years old...and lots of times he would beat my mom..and i waould hear her screams in mybed room...one day it was so bad i had to whatch i didnt no what to do....but the neighbors caled the cops..thank god..and my mom was taken to the hostbital. she was sent to a place so she could recover but she ran away...i had to stay with my grand parents for a week. when my mom left him 3 years ago i was so happy...but i still cut my self becuz i think of how how so many kids get a normal family and have a great child hood.but i dotn get to now.and now she has a new bf i will admit i love him hes very nice but some day i hate him with a pasion..please help me i dont want to cut anmore but i still love the pain....my mother knows i cutshe found out twice but doesn do anything about it...i dont think she loves me....please help me!!!!!
thxz..kelsey (link)
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Hey there, Kelsey :)
I'm a cutter, too, and have been for only a couple months, but it's scary, isn't it? It may seem like your mother doesn't care (I thought the same about both my parents) but I bet she does. You see, finding out something like that is really shocking.
I'm sorry you've had to go through so much. I can't even begin to imagine what you're feeling. I do know that once you see something or hear something, it's very hard to forget and from what I've read about you, that's pretty traumitizing.
Alright, to the advice part of this. Have you ever heard of the butterfly project? Whenever you want to cut, draw a butterfly or a heart or something that has some meaning to you on the skin where you cut. And my Lord, keep the thing alive! If you cut before it fades away (naturally, no scrubbing!) then you've killed it. If you have multiple drawings, then you've killed ALL of them.
Eventually, you'll get to the point where you'll want to see it fade away and you'll have pride in knowing that you kept it alive. I can't begin to tell you how happy I was after my first butterfly made it through!
Trust me, it'll get better. Hang in there, love :)
--FakeSmilesForEveryMile (Kylie)
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