Q: he doesn't notice me. i'm his best friend, yet, im not there when it comes to relationships. i like him. "he" is spencer. i've known him probably forever. hes so easy to talk to, and yet, when i like him, which i have off and on, i trip up things. i say things i soon regret, and i act weird.. so he knows. but then the attraction goes away.. disappears. after that, its like he loves me-- but not in that same way. he loves my company, me being there. but not in a relationship. this has been going on for as long as i can remember.
sometimes we hang out. we walk home the same way almost everyday, so we talk a lot.
sometimes i hang out and watch TV with him.
sometimes i talk to his mom.
we act like best friends.
he's never had a girlfriend.
i've had 5 boyfriends.
we hug.
we laugh.
we smile.
i want him to ask me out.
i need him to ask me out.
i have no clue how to get him to ask me out.
we have a dance coming up soon.
a black and white ball.
he's not one for any school functions, really.
but, he said he might ask someone.
he didn't really tell me.
no, let me rephrase that.
he didn't tell me at all.
just
"i might ask someone to the dance"
then i changed the subject;
i didn't really want to hear it.
but,
the real question is...
how can i find out, with out dropping hints that i like him, AGAIN?
how can i gain his attention?
will i ever get the one guy i've liked since 2nd grade?
