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I'm 25 and I was molested around the age of 3-6 approximately (definitely 7 and below.) It was one time period of where my father when watching porn on the television. Saw me on the bed when it was on and he touched me inside my underwear with his hands. The second time in this one time period. I'd guess within the week, he touched me again but with the vibrator that was advertised on the porn from when he had touched me with his hand the first time. I was taken into care at age 7, a week prior to my birthday of turning 8, and I had all sorts of tests done on me. There was suspicion of sexual abuse but when they asked me, I didn't talk. I was also diagnosed as a select mute. It's all documented, and I had to take therapy to get me to talk and learn how to speak correctly. My biological father also walked around the house/apartment/motel/hotel, where-ever we lived for I don't remember quite well, butt-naked. I saw him like that a lot and the image is seared in my mind. He was disgusting. He even bought women's thongs because he liked their role better in the filth. I opened up to few over the years of what happened but I never considered pressing charges of any kind. Is there still something that can be done and do I have any evidence other than my word and reports of suspicion? I don't think I have strong enough evidence. There was no sign of penetration but there was discharge. (Sorry I know that's gross details but give mind I was 8 when I had these tests.) I don't remember him putting his fingers inside; only touching the outside. There's no evidence, right? It's too many years ago? He also lives in another state now. Charges would bring him here, right? Is there a case here?


-Also, going to court means my eyes have to see him, right? I gave him a second chance as an adult to have a part in my life. I have an idea why but it was an insane thing for me to do for what he had done. I had hoped he was a better man. I had confronted him years later about what he did to me in my childhood. He mourned and said he was sorry only when I confronted him alone. I had told someone else what had happened and he got word of it, he denied it ever happened. He said I was a liar and made it up. That makes me want to have some justice although I know he will get his justice in front of God. That is if he never repents and gets saved. He couldn't even repent to me. He said he was sorry but it was like he had taken it back when it put him in the judgement seat. He couldn't take any punishment for what he had done. Let alone that he wasn't a bigger man by not coming to me and apologizing. I had to go to him. I had to tell him that it hurt me.

There's also the crime of when I was under 7, I'd say 3-4, where he took a knife to me. My mom told me I ended up in a hospital and she faced the criminal charges of what had taken place. She didn't even do it.

Is there anything I can do now? It says in my state that there's no limitations to molestation and it's exactly 18 years of when I was taken into care. Could something still be done? It's also documented I was a select mute. He lives in another state now. I don't want to bring him here nor see him.

He's gotten worse or manifesting as what he was again. He's got all sorts of young, busty women on his facebook page. It's gross. What's worse is my born anoxic brother takes after him. He's got that filth on his facebook, too.

Is doing anything wrong in the eyes of God for God said vengeance is mine? Eternal fire seems like plenty punishment to me. I have issues in my mental health because what had happened. I feel like I should have some retribution for what I had lost.

Dear 25:

You are entitled to justice. Any sexual contact, between a child and a parent damages the child, acts of pornography and fondling need to be dealt with. I understand why you couldn't express the horror at the time and why you still have not been able to resolve it. Until you decisively deal with this, things will go from bad to worse.

I hope that your father repents and God has mercy on his soul but until then he must live in agonizing pain for what he's done. You can't help him now.

You need to get direction to use your energy effectively Please reach out and speak with someone who's trained to help you in this matter. Call the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 800-656-4673. they'll connect you to the proper resources in your area. Also, please read the information at http://www.siawso.org/

You will get your justice. Best wishes, blessings, prayers.

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(Rating: 5) I'm going to let God and Christ Jesus get justice for me. Thank you for the concern.
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