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I'm a 14 year old female with depression and anxiety. I'm a freshman in high school, but I'm homeschooled due to the mental illnesses. Well, I have NO friends. The only interaction I really have is with my family. I probably only go outside once or twice a week. All I really do is play video games, read, surf the internet, do my schoolwork, or other little activities. I love going outside as long as it isn't hot, but I'm just too depressed and anxious. Is there something wrong with me? I go to a therapist every week. I just feel like I'm worthless and not going anywhere since I stay in my room 23 hours of the day, on the internet for like half of that time. I just feel worthless. It's not like I'm a lazy bum who doesn't do anything with their life, I just am majorly depressed and scared to leave my house. I'm still in school and learn a lot though. (link)
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Hi there. There's nothing like depression for sealing us up in a sort of box, both mental and physical too. It really does shut us off from outside stimulus. That world outside isn't looking full of possibilities and opportunities to you right now is it? More like full of threats I bet? There's a sort of repetitive rhythm in your writing mate. Like you're in a never-ending loop. Not confident so you stay put. Meaning you miss out on social interractions and the opportunity to make new acquaintances. So you don't get the chance to build on them and reinforce them. And further down goes your confidence....back to square one, eh? Thing about 'loops' is they don't have a natural break in them, if they did they wouldn't be loops! Right. Now there's nothing badly wrong with what you're doing right now. Frustrating, bit boring maybe, but it's not going to kill you. But you don't want to be posting the same thing when you're 15, or 16 do you. Of course you don't! OK, keep calm. Don't throw yourself into some mad social activity all at once. That's just going to pile on the pressure and crank-up your anxiety levels. How about just starting to think about where you can make an opportunity happen, a chance to break that loop? What do like, or even just like the sound of? Any sports? Learn to ride a horse? Shoot clay pigeons? (Just random guesses, you mentioned liking the outdoors). Learn to paint? Learn photography? List's endless...bet you've got some much better ideas?? Keep looking for some way to get yourself 'out there' again and around people. Bet your mates like social media? Start off by trying to build up some strong on-line friendships. Be upfront, say pretty much what you've said to us in your exchanges. Feeling down, losing interest...can we chat? It's interesting to note that the 'opposite' (if you like) of boredom is NOT excitement. It's social interraction. Just shooting the breeze with friends gets you out of that loop, you don't have to go parachute jumping with them! At 14, you're in it for the long-haul. You've got a lot of living still to do. Wish I had that much life still in front of me sweetheart! So think long term. You're not so bad right now, but try to start making things happen. Small steps, day by day. Celebrate the little victories. Sooner or later they turn the whole war around! You'll get there. XX
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Thank you for answering this. I really feel you saved my life since I was sitting here thinking about killing myself. Thank you for helping me!
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