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Hello advicenators, I am a 15 year old male and have struggled with self harm for 4 years and various eating disorders and I think I may be gay. Yes that is quite a handful of things, but I am bulimia binge free for 3 months and haven't cut for 6 days ( after a 3 week clean). I'm frustrated about my sexuality in general and feel different in the backwards little town I live in. I honestly just want to cut and fall asleep for a while and wake up and know for sure if I will be accepted and if I am more than bisexual. I grow weary of all this uncertainty, but I understand how there is no 100% way to know at my age. My mother knows, and she has been making offensive jokes about it and sneers at the very fact of it all... I want this to stop more than anything.(I am on Zoloft by the way for
depression)I used to go to counseling. I want to be on for five fucking minutes for once. That is my plea for help, and I'm not sure if anyone will even read this let alone have any solutions for my questions.should I be in counseling again, and is there anyone out there I can trust enough to let them help me? (link)
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I didn't read all the other replies, so I'm sure you've received some great advice already. But when I was in high school, my then-boyfriend went through some similar issues: cutting himself, questioning his sexuality, antidepressants, eating disorders. I tried to help him as best I could at the time, and those experiences taught me a lot. If you just need someone to talk to, feel free to privately message me and I'll give you my email (to protect my BF's anonymity).
Also, please PLEASE don't feel like there is anything wrong with you questioning your sexuality. Regardless of what your mom or anyone else in your town thinks. You don't even need to know right now if you're gay or not. Just take the time to love and accept yourself, and when someone comes into your life who perks your interest, be it male or female, you can take it from there. I'm from a small, very conservative, religious town, and I'm all-too-familiar with anti-gay sentiment. (Our town even once made national news for a Day of Silence fiasco). But you know what? I got out of high school, went to college, and traveled around the world. I found out that most people are not so closed-minded, and don't feel the need to see someone as being defined only by their sexuality, or their religion, or their political beliefs. They are genuinely interested in who you are as a person. I have gay friends, bi friends, asexual friends, and straight friends of all different races and religions. And now those people in my old town seem small and limited.
You've only got about 3 years before you can get out into the larger world. Hang in there, it's worth it.
Really, pm me anytime you want to talk.
--Pollux
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hi thanks for answering my question, i think i will inbox you, and the encouragement helps
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