I have dealt with many emotional and psychological issues both personally and in my career. I've gone thru emotional, verbal and sexual abuse, severe depression, therapy, emotional hospitalization, sexual addiction diagnosis, divorce and suicidal ideations. So I've been there, I'm a healthy person now and in a healthy relationship. But I've definately learned from the School of Experience and I'd love to be able to help others with the knowledge that all that has brought me. I'm not judgemental but I will be very frank if with my OPINIONS.
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Occupation: Registered Nurse
Age: 34
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Since I was 14, I've been depressed. I'm now 20 and it hasn't subsided. I was diagnosed as Bipolar II a year ago and I'm now on wellbutrin and lithium. It does seem to help a little, I am very happy sometimes. But I constantly feel guilty about stuff I did in the past, or how I spoke to someone recently, etc.. I get upset over small things and have numerous crying spells every week. I'm seeing a therapist now but I don't know if she knows the extent of how I'm feeling. I don't know how to convey my thoughts without sounding retarded or psychotic. Another thing, I'm always thinking about killing myself or other people who've pissed me off. I can't talk to her about that. I tried with another therapist and they threw me in a hospital. Men I used to be in a relationship with, who've done me wrong, have no idea that I have homicidal thoughts about them on a day to day basis. I'm tired of being like this. I'm tired of being angry and sad and guilty, and I'm tired of mistreating my friends and family but I'm so easily annoyed, I'm always snapping. Most importantly, I'm just tired of being like this over nothing. Nothing traumatic has happened in my life to upset me this much. Nothing huge, anyway. Just a few traitors and liars and schemers. Just a lot of people that did little things to me, but the little things pile up until I can't even see the details anymore, all I see is a wall of anger and hurt. How do I make it stop? Can anyone relate? (link)
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Solidadvise4teens says it all.... get help and be honest. I'm an RN and I know you feel crazy but you can't get the help you need if you don't tell the professionals what you feel. And a hospital stay in a good facility with a good emotional health department is crutial to make sure you get your medications adjusted correctly.
Thanks for your response. I'm not a psych professional and I've never worked on psych but I have been a patient on an emotional health unit. I was diagnosed with severe depression, suicidal ideations, OCD related to sexual addiction and history of sexual abuse... I'm not trying to make this about me. I just want you to know that I've been in a place where I felt very unstable. So tell me about your two previous stays.... Do you feel that it was benificial? Were you able to be totally honest about how you feel? Are you on any kind of suicide watch where you've signed a contract to contact a friend if you feel like harming yourself or do your parents and loved ones keep all knives and other potentially harmful objects locked away for you to use only under supervision? What are you doing to protect yourself and others right now? Please make a vow to at least call the suicide hotline if you feel like doing anything to hurt yourself or anyone else. 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
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I can't go to a hospital because I can't afford it. My parents are still trying to figure out how to pay off the enormous bills from my last two stays.
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