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I physically feel an ache in my chest and a burning in the pit of my stomach, accompanied by nausea. I feel jittery (probably from lack of sleep.) I haven't been sleeping well, infact from friday night to last night Ive only had 2 hours of sleep. I'm having a bit of a nervous breakdown do to, having to explain to a unknown person on the bus about what gender I am and in their words, "why I go to extreme lengths to make it difficult to read." That bothered me the most, then I was called out to be a liar and mentally ill, as well as homosexual. Which are in no way remotely tied to the reasons I dress androgynous. I accept the fact that God made me as the sex he intended to. Is it so wrong to want to view myself as either male or female? I just feel like I'm the child that was caught playing with the wrong gender inrolled toy, and yelled at to reinforce the roles I need to take up on as being born of that gender. Now I don't want to leave my home. I feel like all eyes are on me, and like they all for some reason are either 1 disgusted or 2 dissaprove. Please, any "possitive" advice welcomed. I feel pretty jaded from everything, and it seems like I just worked up the courage to feel comfortable in my own skin and finally be able to dress how I want, but now in a fracture of a second it just all seized to exist... (link)
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I know this is really hard, but ignore those jerks. If you ignore them, eventually it will stop. Also, most judgmental people are insecure about themselves and just try to take it out on others. They cover their imperfections by pointing out others. Who cares about what all these other people think? You certainly shouldn't. Being able to ignore them will only make you a stronger person. As long as you are happy with the way you are, NOBODY ELSE'S OPINION MATTERS. God made you the way you are, unique and beautiful in ways that other people aren't. Find that courage you had that made you feel comfortable about yourself and use that to boost your confidence. It will be so much harder for people to bother you if you walk around with your head held high with confidence in yourself. Here's a quote by Christopher Morley that you should remember: "There is only one success - to be able to spend your life in your own way." To me, this means not letting other people get in the way of your happiness and success. I really hope this helped and made you feel better :)
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