Hi there!!!I´m from Argentina!!student of English in a very important University from the town where I live,I love English lge and would like to hear about native speakers!!!I´m a nice and common person who is deeply in love and who does not actually know right now how to cope with it..
Gender: Male
Location: argentina
Occupation: student
Age: 26
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I’m totally ruined, I can’t tolerate any severe pains that I’m suffering, I feel I should end this and kill myself.
I have to, every second my mind tell me this spontaneously!
I’m 25 years old, male and I live in Iran (yeah a hellish country as you probably know that!)
I have no job, no activity, and I struggle with severe depression since I was 15, I actually commit suicide once when I was teenager, I never had any girlfriend and no one ever told me that I like you.
just now I have anxiety too, I’m on medication now for 2 month but I feel it just getting worse.
my life spent for music and instrument (some traditional Iranian music and Guitar). I had all playing and practicing in the darkness of my room in a total loneliness, but now for six month I’m afraid to lay a hand in any instruments I’m afraid all I would hear is my loneliness or delirium.
I hate my country, I hate Islam, and I hate the dictatorship of tyranny which is ruling and forcing its power into each Iranian life. And because I didn’t serve mandatory service in military I don’t have the right for working, or passport and right to leave the country or a global identity.
when I was teenager or a kid I used to talk to god, but now I truly doubt his existence, when I talk to him it’s like I’m just talking to myself in a total darkness. I am a spiritual guy but I’m afraid I sense all religions and all things about god is a big lie! There is no meaning in life. I’m scared.
Sometimes I stay in my room for total 3 weeks and I have great tendency to not leave the house.
Now I have a plan to leave Iran illegally and accept all the risks which would be in the way and I bring myself to UK. There is the only hope only light for me. But I’m scared. Because I know a lot of people there would behave me with discrimination and racism. I’m afraid I would be rejected. Sometimes I feel I’m just a garbage which should be get ridden of. I need help….!
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you are not any garbage sweetie,I bet you're really cute and quite sensitive,I can see that through your writing,you need someone who cares about you and makes you feel things you haven't experienced yet,you are so alone and nobody can cope with it for too long bc we are social beings,we need to share good and bad things with others,otherwise bad things will devour you,you are so young and full of life,your mission in life is bearly starting,go for it!!!only apples fall down from trees and run into your head,not people,nor happiness,you have to look for it,you'll thank yourself later!!just try to be happy with what you already have and where you already live:)
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I highly appreciate your advice and encouragement. thank you!
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