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Hi all, 23/f. Just wondering if anyone has any insight.
I have PTSD from my ex boyfriend physically abusing me (I left him in October 2010), and a car crash I had in 2006...but I thought that was better. The physical abuse led to whiplash just like the accident, so maybe that's where some connection is. Anyway...
I keep dreaming about two things: (my) suicide, and (my) wedding(s).
So far, these dream experiences have stuck out to me:
*I've driven my car off the side of an exit ramp into a lake, thought about opening the window (I have an old car with hand-crank windows), but chose not to and then woke up.
*I saw myself as a little girl climb onto a railing on a balcony and walk straight off. Someone checked her and proclaimed her dead. I was watching little me do this, standing in my wedding dress in a very very bright cathedral. I never saw the groom, and the wedding never actually happened. I woke up walking away.
*I was rehearsing for my wedding with my old choir from high school - we were singing in it...at some point I was sobbing and mopping the carpet somewhere, and angry, but I don't know about what. I woke up after that.
*Last night, I dreamed I was talking to my ex-before-last about my wedding. I think he was the groom. Near the end of the dream, I was crying on the phone to him, and standing in my bedroom at my parents' house (I've lived out of their house for almost six years), and I think the wedding was canceled or postponed for some reason.
Like every single night I dream about something like this. I'm so tired of it, and they so disturb me, I can't begin to tell you. I don't know if it has anything to do with the fact that the ex who abused me is someone with whom I was living, and discussing marriage, but these dreams didn't start until recently...ish.
ARGH!!
Any ideas? (link)
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Honestly, I do not think that anyone is qualified to answer this question. You obviously are having very disturbing dreams and you should talk to a professional about it. These dreams could lead to possibly hurting yourself.
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Sorry for the low rating, but I think you should know that it isn't a good idea to answer unless you HAVE an answer. No offense meant. Just because I'm dreaming about it doesn't mean it's going to happen, or that I want it to, and it's somewhat incorrect of you to go that route. I was just looking for someone to help me reflect on the symbolism, as it's been done here before. Rather than needing someone qualified, I just needed someone curious. Thanks for trying anyway.
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