Im from california. I play the violin. My birthday is febuary 10. And i love to have new friends. (:
Gender: Female
Location: Long beach california
Occupation: 8th grade student
Age: 13
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2010-06-24 17:28:11
12:18
So, where should I begin.
So much has happened in the last couple months,
and a lot of it drives me absolutly insane.
There's been crap with my ex, he confuses me most of the time
I talk to him.
I was talking to him last night and most of the thing he said
were super offensive.
He called me fat ( I know I'm not fat, but I really wish I didn't
hear that from him. )
he's jut been contradicting himself a lot. And I mean a lot.
Anyways, I did break up with him.
And I don't know how I should feel about that.
I actually feel happier, but I don't know if I want him to know that.
I don't want to hurt his feelings as much as I seem to have already.
I wish I could just have a great boyfriend like Jess or my sister does.
But I might be getting a job at Matteo's as a busser!
I'm really, really excited about that; and I hope it works out
for the best.
I've also been looking as postsecret stuff more.
It makes me have the urge to get off my lazy ass
and buy myself a camera. I have no money yet though.
I think it'd be cool to write secrets on the pictures I take
and put them on flickr.com. I'm pretty sure I need to get Photoshop
first though, and I have no clue how to do that.
2010-07-01 18:59:44
1:47
Hmm, what am I feeling today?
I feel lonely.
And confused.
Does anyone like me? It doesn't feel like it.
It could be just my hormones again, but I don't know.
I wish I was happy, like a lot of people are.
But it could be worse.
I could be living on the streets. With nothing but the clothes on my back?
Who am I? What the hell am I doing ?
I say I want to help, but where has that gotten' me?
I need someone to undestand, just like I try to understand others.
I'm not strong. I try to convince myself that I am, but it can't be true.
I want to be loved, I want to help others. But how can I do that, if I can't
even help myself.
I haven't been through anything. Sure, a bad relationship, a scary car
crash and a semi bad young childhood. But I haven't been through shit
compared to anyone else.
So how can i help?
I talk to God; I try to at least.
But i don't know, I'm going through one of my stages, yet again. This stage
is when I'm so fed up with life, I don't know what to believe.
Ugh, I just want it all to stop.
I'm tired and I'm sad. And I wish someone understood me.
I wish someone could help me help them, or help them to help myself.
I really need a gaurdian in my life.
I know the Lord is. But someone on planet earth.
That can listen and actually talk back and hold my hand and tell me
everything gunna' be alright.
All of that is my diary, please, someone. Any advice would be great.
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This guy sounds like hes not worth your time. Remember even if your young or old there will be that perfect guy. Hes not the only fish in the sea. Hope i helped and best of luck! :)
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