Hi. 14/f long im sorry, please read though ;(
Ok, I made a lot of mistakes. I lost a respect from a best friend,(cierra) i told something she told me in confidence to my other best friend(shaila). I shouldn't have and i regret it so much, we are trying to start over again, it's so hard though because both cierra and shaila hate each other. They are fighting, and shaila she is my best friend now because she helped me threw a lot. Threw the fighting with cierra and with a guy who really hurt me(i will get to him soon) I really regret telling Shaila but i could trust shaila, but cierra can't. She never gave shaila a chance though, she's really a good person. I hate her criticizing her, she's also mad that she's my best friend now, but i can't help that. She treated me horrible, i didn't treat her right either though. Now, on to the boy. You see he was the guy i really thought "loved" me. He made me feel good, he told me i was pretty, hot sexy and all of that. He said i love and i want to hold you and stuff.We met last summer and i liked him and he liked me to, i found out that he liked this other girl to. I didn't like the idea of that. He used me, because the other girl lives all the way in Florida. We talked like dirty to each other and all that, he actually got me to do that.I decided to forget about him than he came back, i was stupid enough to take him as my boyfriend. I really thought we would last. Than the thing that i regret the MOST is, i sent him a pic of me nude. Not fully only one breast.He convinced me, by sending me a picture of his.. you know. So, i thought we were the real deal? That we were really together and he really cared about me, but the next day he broke up with me, telling me that i was CHEATING on him?!!! So, we were over. I moved on off of him, i have someone else, but i feel so horrible and i really need some help. I feel sick all the time, i vomit every morning on my way to school because im so stressed because of all of this. I don't eat as much as i use to. I'm so depressed. Please someone help me, how do i forget what i did move on? I know what i did was wrong, i asked god to forgive me of my sins, but i still feel like a horrible person. Shaila tells me that i'm not, im the best thing that ever happend to her, im the only friend who gives her repsect, and she doesnt want to lose me. Please don't criticize me more please, just help alright?
Thanks for listening sorry it's so long.
Forgiveness is the bridge to brocken trust.
Quote: If we really want to love
we must learn how to forgive
- Mother Teresa
Quote: Since everything is in our heads, we had better not lose them.
Coco Chanel
I hope you don't get offended by my reply I am really trying to help you. The best way to move on is to remember them fondly learn from your mistakes.
I draw my strength by reading inspirational quotes from very admirable leaders. Look up inspirational quotes in your web browser and read all you can. Your not expexted to be perfect everyone makes mistakes the strong ones learn from thier mistakes the foolish ones don't. You are a strong one I can see that by what you wrote, you will be O.K. Ask Cierra to forgive you she may need time to think about it but assure her you'll never betray anyone again there's too much to loose. On the other side of the coin Cierra had too higher expectations to put her trust in someone so young and inexperienced maybe she should discuss her secrets with a priest in future then you are in no position to misuse her trust. She did put a lot of responsibility on your shoulders. Now I don't know whether you mocked her problem or were sincerly concerned and sort your own guidance from Shaila however, My Dad once said to me "If you want to keep a secret DON"T TELL ANYONE, as soon as you tell someone it is no longer a secret."
That makes a lot of sence to me. Now about this guy, OMG, Never Ever send naked or semi naked pictures to ANY Guy on the internet or mobile phone. He betrayed you As soon as he got it what a shit. So now you completely understand how Cierra feels about betrayal and this is painfull. Never give males the TOOLS to betray you, it always comes around and bite you with teeth right on the ass. I have been with my man 26 yrs there is NO photos of me or him looking less than presentable. These sorts of images are tools for blackmail and bad intentions never for personal use That's a lie. Just never do this again for your own confidance. You don't want your kids finding this stuff. NO you don't so please promise yourself. There is enough smut out there to keep there hands in thier shorts.
Now, Building that bridge with forgiveness. Are you prepared to invite the 2 girls together over coffee to resolve thier differences so you can be a happy group of 3 good friends. You can't please everyone but Ciera's critisim of Shaila comes from her own lack of self worth so she needs to work on that to improve her relationship with her.
Friends come & go through out your whole life. You are a whole person with or with out them it's just nice to share your time with them when this turns sour time out should settle the dust. You'll never know unless you try if you don't try you'll never know. You've got everything to gain & nothing to loose. You have apologiged to Jesus He has forgiven you. Gather your strength from a quote site you will be strong enough to face this all those people are behind you 100%.
Good luck I hope this helps. I wish you well sweetie
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Thank you so much!! ;D god bless you:)
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