okay so im 16/f and just within the past year or so, i have had about a handfull of adult relatives and family friends die. one of which was my grandma whom i was very close with. now that i have gotten over the initial greeving, i am now dealing with a bit of paranoia. everytime i go to do something, i guess i shouldnt be doing (smoking weed, drinking, having sex) i feel like my dead relatives are like watching over me or are in the room. i know it sounds crazy but i cant get it outta my head. and it honestly freaks me out, and worrys me. if anyone out there has dealt with this same sort of thing, can you just let me know about it and if you found a way to get over this. any help would be awsome. thanks in advance!
by the way, i dont smoke weed that often, for that to be the root of my paranoia. and usually my worrying about them watching is bad leading up to doing it, not so much after.
and also i dont want to hear about how you think drinking, having sex, or smoking weed is bad. i dont care.
You said:- and also i dont want to hear about how you think drinking, having sex, or smoking weed is bad. i dont care.
@16 you should care about more about yourself.
It's just the age your at 16 you will grow out of it. You have suffered terrible loss over & over The guilt is because you know better & your subsconcious is loud & clear as to your behaviour choices like if you were doing something positive you would feel a sence of pride & joy and not dissapointment and humiliation of being watched by your deceased family & friends whom have definately crossed over. You have suffered a terrible loss many times. Everyone in life has loss & is part of growing wiser. you will come out of this far wiser than your years. Don't loose your way remember everyone fondly they are in a better place not hanging around parties watching you get wasted. O.K. turn your adversities into a positive.
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thanks dude so much.
but just for the record, im not some alchohalic whore who has no morals or standards. and im not running around parties every weekend getting fucked up. ive been with my boyfriend for 2 years before having sex. and im just a normal 16, almost 17 year old girl expiermenting and having fun.
and weed is awesome.
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