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Hi. im 16. going to be a 10th grader. i dont know why, im just so depressed. there are always bad things happening around me.
when i was little i had a best freind, whos parents were freinds of my parents. we knew each other since birth, and we ended up liking each other and stuff. i dont know. but something happend to him, and he totally changed (we are thinking he was maybe raped or something.) anyways, i lost him as a friend in about ... 5th grade. that was the major begining of my depression. his parents then divorced (his dad is mental) a couple years ago and well now, his mom, who i feel like shes my aunt, is gunna die in 4 months of cancer. and my old freind (who i havent talked to in 3 years) is going to prolly go live with his mental dad who he hates..
then in 7th grade i finally got a bf. we were together almost 2 years, and then we had some issues, and he ended up being upset that we never did much, so he went behind my back texting girls (including my cousin) very inappropriate texts and everything. he broke up with me after i found out. that was DEVASTATING. it took me forever to get over that, and i still really havent. he says he still loves me and he was just fghting with himself and stuff. i dont know im not going back to him because he will hurt me again.
i now have a bf, tho i emailed him a break up (because i dont have his home number and his cell broke) and i like my best freind, who i've known for 4 years, and we are guuna go out. but no one makes me as happy as my bf who i dated for 2 years, or my old childhood friend who was like my brother and more than that.
i dont know if that relly has anything to do with my depression but i feel like theres no happiness in the world and idk why. im prolly not gunna commit suicide or anything, because it would devastate my parents, but i still dont see a reason to live, and i feel like im just here, dead, with no happiness. i try to depend on my friends to help me happy, but i cant because i feel bad that i depend on them, and i feel like i annoy them, tho they say idont. i just dont know what to do. i've lost all reason for life. i like music, but alot of it just depresses me. and it helps me sometimes, but i dont know. i also have a weird feeling of wanting to do drugs to get away from it all, or maybe because i feel like im on them, mindless or something. i know i'd get addicted too, but i dnot even know how to get any, and i'd get in major trouble, because im like... an honor student and stuff. so i dont know...
please help me. i just dont know what to do. and i dont wanna tell my mom that im depresed because she will worry about me,and also, depression runs in my dads side of the family.... so.. yeah.
just please help me (link)
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Hi, I'm the same age as you, in the same grade, and the same gender. Above all that I have had alot of the same problems. I have also had many more than you listed, I'm sure you have too. So if you would like to talk I'm sure we could help each other. My emails are flyfunpixie@aol.com, Whoops830@hotmail.com, and suger_strawberry_shortcake@yahoo.com. I would like to listen to you, talk to you seriously, give you advice, and if you would like, be a friend. Which is why I would like to talk to you via email. I am extending a hand of support out to you, a hand that is worn and used, but even so can be a support system to another. It is your choice whether to accept it or not. I truly hope you do because I would like you as friend.
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thank you. im sorry i havent answered lately. i've been sooo busy! i have hotmail (can_you_say_bubbles@hotmail.com), AIM (im not on that much), and yahoo (butterfly_singer_girl@yahoo.com). so whatever you would rather use... =D hope to hear back from you soon. and thank you.
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