Q: I've made a big mistake. I feel my heart hurt as hell. I want to fix it but I don't know how?.
My A(sister) and her b (boyfriend)
Broke up on tuesday.
Me and B are really good friends, I always hang out at his place (he lives alone) and drink etc..
B's bestfriend Y, is also my bestfriend (he is a male).
On wednesday B called me and told me to come over (it's okay he always does) and told me that Y is coming and 3 other of our friends and they are bringing Tequila.
So I went and I was very drunk, me and B were in the room, and I was telling him he should go back to A, THEN HE KISSED ME
He kissed me and said he liked me, we made out really hard(including blowjobs and almost fucking)
I don't remember anything, but that all our friends left but Y was sleeping in the room and we were making out HARD again on the couch, then I don't remember exactly but that I woke up and I was naked (no pants or underwear) and there was a blanket on me on the couch.
So I put my underwear on and pants, and went to Bs room and found him asleep but Y wasn't at home.
On thursday Y was traveling,(he was going to travel after the party on a holiday) we're at a party and he told me when i'm extremely drunk i'm going to call because there is something i have to tell you.
When he was drunk, he told me "I know that you and B made out, _____ I love you, and I told B that yesterday and he was so surprised because he made out with you, and I was shocked you would do something like that, how could you make out with your A's ex after one day, and I couldn't sleep so when i was leaving i found you naked on the couch, then put the blanket on you" and he kept telling me stufff
I was shocked, i thought B put the blanket on me. I'm so embaressed and i don't know what to do.
I messed up BIG TIME.
I don't know how to fix it and I've hurt alot of people because of my stupidness. Please help me, i don't have anyone to ask and when i asked my bestfriend (she isnt in town, she left) , she told me
"fuck you its B (A's longest relationship... someone she loved!)
sarah that was low
really low
lower than A would ever go or even THINK about going
i cant help you
the only thing you can do now is to grow up ya ______(and im saying this because i love you and i dont what to see you get pregnant or end up being an alcoholic)
you need to start thinking seriously about shit take a look at what your becoming ya ______
i mean first with ahmad(a guy in a party) which was bad but i let it go then with sharaf(ma ex) i couldnt believe what you did but i didnt say shit because i thought maybe this would make you start watching what your doing but no after that came shady(another dude)... sure it was funny but seriously remember when we used to criticize carina(a girl used to make out with shady)? well your waaaaay worse and now B!
i swear to god _____ im starting to think you should go and live with your dad for real
sure he was an asshole but he's better than winding up on the streets with nothing
and believe me _____ this is only gonna get worse when you go to australia...
i know you want me to pat you on the back and say its gonna be alright but the way your behaving its NOT
you seriously need to stop drinking stop screwing around and ACT LIKE A 14 YEAR OLD instead of some middle aged drunken whore
i swear to god _____ if i were there i would slap and beat some sense into you
i know no one gives a rats ass that ur ruining ur life including your mom (i love that woman but enough is enough) but I DO!
you need to start sobering up and stop drinking ALL TOGETHER!
which means no drinking at all not even an ID
its not impossible ya _____ people who r worse off than you did it
thats only the tip of the iceberg
but if you cant do that then im tough luck _____ your probably gonna end up dead before your 18"
Please anyone help me to fix it.
