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I am 13 and female. I am sick of this crap but I couldn't be more crazy about this boy... Is that possible?? This boy (I'll call him Ryan) has pretty much taken over my brain. I feel like I'm thinking about him 24/7 but our relationship is so complicated, I will try my best to explain it. I have liked him for about a year but I only REALLY got to know him over the summer, we would talk constantly online or because we hung out with the same ppl, see eachother regularly. He started off by just being a friend I could just talk to... I dont know but I really opened up to him and I learned so much about him, his favorite animal, color, food and his biggest fear. When school started it felt like the only reason to go was to see him ( and my friends of course but I've never felt that way about a boy ). I sometimes sat with him at lunch and we still talked online as much as usual, which was A LOT.

I guess school starting made things complicated. People started teasing ( mainly Ryan's friends ) saying things like "the couple that isn't dating". And Ryan started ignoring me which hurt... Badly... Was I not worth the teasing? I confronted him about it, I asked why he kept ignoring me, and his answer kind of confusing. He said that he was only trying to get his friends off his back but he claimed he didn't care anymore. Then he told me that he liked me alot but he really just didn't want a girlfriend at the moment. Anyway after that, for a very long time, things were fine but now its just wierd and I have no idea why or if anythings changed at all... I could just be being paranoid... He signs on online but when I say something to him he won't respond... He isn't blocking me but he's just not responding... But of course this on a computer so its impossible to know if he's just sitting there deliberately ignoring me ( for whatever reason, I would have no idea ) or if he's not sitting near the computer at all... I just don't know!! And at school whenever I'm around him things seem awkward... I really can't explain it, what I can explain is that its really hurting me. It just hurts when we don't talk, and even though he isn't my boyfriend I still feel like he has a commitment to me as a friend. I haven't had a decent conversation with him in about a week, I really miss talking to him but I don't know what to do... When I have the time to be online, he isn't, andat school we can't talk for more than a moment because there are interuptions from other people or we have to go to class, it feels like the universe really wants to make sure we don't talk at school, haha, I don't know. it hurts so much. Sometimes I feel like it isn't worth this pain, but its painful when we DONT talk (is that healthy?) so I dont want to know what it will feel like if I have to move on... My friends tell me I'm too good for him and that I should like someone who isn't so darn confusing, who will never ignore me, and who will always try to talk to me. And other times they tell me they think we are the most adorable pair ever and that he difinitely goes out of his way to be sweet and give me attention. But I can't control who I like!! And I really like him. He really understands me, he makes me feel special, and sometimes I can't see how I could go through a day without him... Then there are times when the pain just makes me want to give up on him... I dont know if I can or if I should or what. I am so sorry this is so long but I really need an outsiders view. Please help! Boys opinions would be great too!

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(Rating: 5) Yeah I think that I know you are right, but it is so hard to face the fact that nothing will happen. I believe we will be someting someday, I honestly do, but then there is a part of me (whether its the realistic or negative part , I can't tell) that tells me we won't. I know we would be a great couple but I also know it won't happen, not now anyway, besides he is moving at the end of the year... Gosh someone out there really wants to make my life difficult. I truely and honestly like him and I don't want to let go!! I know I need to but I just don't want to!! And I just cannot find a reason to let go without making some kind of an excuse I think, "he is ignoring me" and I am upset, but the next day he does something that makes me completely forget and it feels like my heart will explode. Even him moving can't discourage me because he might move back in 10th grade... This is horrible, I know I should give up but how can I force myself to do this when it seems like he knows exactly how to make me adore him?? And I honestly don't think I can handle losing a friendship. Sooooo haha I guess I am asking you another question... Sorry!! But it would be great if you could give me some more advice; please??
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