wow this is so ironic, i was actually just talking to my friend about this. she is just beginning to try to get over her first love, so i was telling her about how i still felt about mine...
Anyway, I was madly in love with a guy about 2.5 years older than me, my parents did not like the idea of us seeing one another, i snuck around to see him and my parents finally accepted my feelings towards him, we dated for about 4.5 months. I gave myself to him because i had fallen madly in love with him. He introduced me not only to love but heartbreak, one night we were suppose to see each other and he never called me. My friend flipped out and took my phone secretly calling him, i was a mess, i figured wow was he ignoring me because i slept with him? I went to his webpage saw i wasnt even on his top friends (yes sounds ridiculous but it meant something to me given the fact he was talking to his ex) So i sent him a message. The next day he called back complaining about the message i sent him, of course i gave in apologizing, even though i know now i did nothing wrong. Then later he called again accusing me of being with another guy, this broke my heart ( yes there was a guy who liked me, but i love the guy i was with) So he didnt believe me, then he called again saying hey lets forget this ever happened, we made plans to hang out and all so he could actually meet my friends which he never did. He then canceled those plans with me, i asked him what are we, what do you want us to be, he said just friends, I WAS A WRECK. Over the next 2 days we talked online and he said he wanted to see me so i of course wanted to see him, we hang out, him manipulating my thoughts making me think we could work it out saying he still loves me calling me on the phone at night. Then about a week later he calls me after school and says your not going to like this but im dating my ex again, i simply said whatever makes you happy. It's like the world stopped for that moment, everything ended. it was just me standing there like an idiot. We talked for awhile after that he wanted to see me but i didnt see him because i couldnt just be friends with him at least at that point. He would still call on a private number so i would answer, he would send me back emails i sent him about how much i loved him asking if i remembered writing that, i moved past him, it been 2 years, sure to this day yes i still do miss him, yes i still do even love him after all he put me through. He taught me so much and made me stronger, made me stop being naive, helped me shape who i am today, from that experience i matured into a woman, but most of all i thank him for letting me love him and for making me feel loved.


a first love is not something you ever truly get over, they remain with you. "you never stop loving somebody, you just start loving somebody else"

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Brittni

Thank you SO much. I hope its alright if i msg you one day in your inbox. Im just going through a really tough time, and you seem like someone that would be considerate enough to listen. Thanks again.

Hello there the names Brittni, I decided to make a site on advicenators because i wanted to help others with their struggles, its a passion of mine, i hope one day to achieve my dream of opening a center for teens. Let it be known that i will never judge you based on a question you ask, i will simply give you an answer i find fitting, but dont expect me to candy coat my answer, im going to be honest. In the past i have been faced with many difficult things and looking back i am confident i made the right decisions. I've been through a lot personally, i've heard a lot, I've seen a lot, I've grown a lot. Heck, i know im not perfect but im the best version of myself i can be which is perfection in my eyes. I know sometimes speaking to someone you know about your issue is hard, trust me i've been there. Just like i have helped others i am here to help you with the best intentions. So i am here for you if you need me.

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