My name is Angel, and I love helping people. I'm anything but perfect, and I don't expect anyone else to be. I don't judge, and I don't try to make peoples choices for them. I simply try to help in the best way I can. I've been through some very good, and very bad times in my life. They have sculpted me into the beautiful mess you see before you today.
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Well as the subject says latelty I've been thinking about suicide quite often.Now before you go off and say,"No! don't do it" or "You need serious help".Just shut up will you!!! Yes I know it's the cowardly way out of life and often missunderstood as to why anyone would want to take their own life.Okay I'm 15,female and currently a freshman.Since I turned 11 or right around 5th grade I guess,I began to get sick alot.Like with colds and such,I'd miss school alot and my parents would get stressed with me.Hell I'd stress out too,but that's not why I wanna end it.Now I'm in High School and been missing alot due to being ill.Right now I have some stupid pneumonia thing,not completely.I'm on antibiotics so yeah.But any way,like I said.I'm to much of a chicken to kill myself,yet that is.
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I had a friend who commited sucided, and i remember thinking at the time, "why do they use the word 'commited'?". And when i thought about it one thing came to mind, it's one those things you can't change, once you make the choice there is no turning back.
My friend thought alot like you. She had a weak immune system as a result of cancer treatment she had when she was young. So people thought the same things about her as they do about you. She thought the world hated her, and so i guess thats why she did it.
Junior year she hung herself. I'd never seen so many people cry, and i realized it wasn't because they knew her or were sorry for all the things she was going through, they were sad because of all the things she'll never get to do. Like graduation, or fall in love, travel, or maybe even have a kid of her own someday.
I'm not going to tell you need to get help, because it seems to me you already understand what your choice will mean. And feeling alone and helpless does not make you crazy.
But you do have a choice and don't i think you should take it lightly. The problem with skipping out on the rest of your life now is that you never know how much better it's going to get. i get that you don't really want advice and i understand that, but understand this, life's as good as we make it. People only have power over you if you give it to them. So stop listening to them, and more importantly stopping living for them. Maybe then sucide wouldn't seem like the easy way out anymore.
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