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Hi, I'm Jacky.
My life has been rough, because of me.
It got better, until I did stupid things, and now I feel like there's nothing else I can do to make it better, I just mess up more and more. The more I mess up, the more I look like a dumb ass.
First, I have a friend over and I sneak two guys downstairs at 11 at night, and my dad's caught us.
So, my dad and mom have absolutely no trust in me, what so ever. I actually think my family hates me, because I don't listen, and I do things I'm not supposed. I've been doing that, for the past years. Plus they found out I tried pot and I'm sexually active. So that's a huge minus. I get in huge fights with my parents, mostly with my dad. I feel like I just failed my family, honestly. I don't know how to talk or act around them anymore. I just feel uncomfortable and awkward.
And then, I reported this kid for selling drugs, which he sold them to me, and I told a teacher at school about it, and she ended up telling the principal on me, I thought I could trust her. Then I had to rat him out because of what I told my teacher, then I have to go to all this court shit and be a witness, which I don't really want to be. I wish this would've never happened, this kid is going to have a fucked up life with my involvement. What the fuck is wrong with me. It's all my fault. And I can't take it back. But that's my fault.
And 3rd, I cheated on my boyfriend with another guy. I couldn't stand my boyfriend, he's attracted to assholes, shit, and farts. And I'm being honest. He hits me. He's just a jackass. But he knows how to cover himself to make people believe him. But honestly, he was a huge part of my life. And now that's gone. But now I'm with the other guy, who hardly calls me, he says he thinks it's best because he doesn't want us to get too attached and end up being bored with each other. Now, I love talking on the phone, and really like him, but I don't know. I just think there's something wrong with me. I honestly think I'm hated by a lot of people. I do not know what to do with my life anymore. I'm really scared and stuck. I've cheated and lied before. And I've just been a bad person lately.
I wish I could've handled things differently. But, I didn't. I have no idea what to do. I feel like I've fucked up my life. I think a lot of people hate me too. But that's besides the point.
Please anybody, give me advice. I don't know how to start know, I have no idea what to do with myself anymore.
Thank you. (link)
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This is a really huge problem. You need to tackle things bit by bit, apologize to people you've hurt. It'll be very difficult, and I know you probably feel everything from now on is impossible, but it's not. You need to regain everyone's trust, perhaps spend time with your parents, become close to them and stick to what they say, so they feel they can trust you. And as for people hating you, well, once you have sorted out your problems, apologized to everyone you have hurt, then they have no reason to! As for your ex-boyfriend, as someone that hits you, you clearly deserve better, no matter what you've done. I'd say go single for a while, just until you've sorted everything. Don't try and solve it all at once, do it slowly, piece by piece, and although it will be difficult, I know you can do it! Believe in yourself, and I promise you everything will go well =)
Most of all, don't forget to smile!
Everything will be okay =)
Good luck! I wish you well!
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Thanks for the advice. :]
I just really want a clean slate, and I want to make everyone happy.
I hate messing up. :/
But I hope everything goes well.
Thank you. :]
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