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Basically, I've been reading all about Ouija boards, talking boards, whichever you prefer.
The other night, I used an online Ouija board, of course it seemed a fluke to me but nevertheless I tried it out. No, I was not looking to see my future or nothing of that nature. 3 years ago I lost a brother, he was a lot older than me and was only half my blood. He took his own life. To this day I suffer with this reality that he is gone and I never got to know him. I wanted to contact him, I believe in God and I love God but my own incompetence is sure to get the best of me. To my prevail, I could not get to my brother. I spoke to God, because mostly I have blamed Him for taking my brother away, for pushing him to the brink of his own breakdown and point of destruction of his own life. I asked for forgiveness and I know He has forgiven me because I have promised never to do the Sin again. The occult is evil, this I know. I know I will get to see my brother and I felt like this was my chance to talk to him. I feel like its a calling to get a real Ouija and try once more, the temptation to contact my brother is getting stronger everyday but I fight it because of my love for God.
My chihuahua sleeps in the bed with me, this morning I woke up and she was barking at the mirror, continuously, yes it scared me, but I know my faith protects me from Evil spirits. She did it the other night as well.. I know that animals and young children can see what others cannot. I don't know if something is following me and maybe I'm taking it a little too far but I have a feeling its something more.
Is something following me?
About a week ago I had a dream about my brother's sons. I've been wanting to contact them but the fear of more pain prevents me from doing so.. What should I do?
I'm not one who usually ask for advice on here but this is something I cannot avoid.
Thank you for those who help.
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I'm so sorry for your loss. It can be very hard to keep your faith when someone you love dies so young, and for reasons you may never understand.
By all means, talk to your pastor. There's nothing you could say to him/her that would shock them. What' you're trying to do (contacting your brother) has been tried by countless people for as long as people have been on this earth. Is that a sin? I don't know...I think it's just such a feeling of sadness that you'll try anything you can to have that one last conversation. I have a hard time believing in a God that would turn his back on you for that; but everyone's faith is different.
Pain is a part of life. It's hard, but that's the truth. Try to find the joy being alive--being with your family and friends, and living your life as best you can, every day. Sounds sappy, I know, but that's all we really have.
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Thank you for your help. I try to help others so much I never take time for myself. Sometimes I am the same way about my beliefs, yes I want to belive there is a God and I want to believe there is something else out there. Ah well, thanks again. I'm not really a church-goer, never have been but I guess I could give it a try.
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