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This is going to be a very odd question, hard to answer, and it technically has nothing to with "Spirituality" other than that I would appreciate some answers from a christian point of view. What excatly am I being taught here? All advice is welcome, though.

Well, I've always been low in confidence, but it's the past week that it's gotten extreme, I've literatly spent hours crying for beauty, praying for it, and envying those who have it. All my diary entries have been about it - and how life is without it. Today I woke up, and while looking at my reflection said "Please, make me feel beautyful today".

I went out on the town and was introduced to a french guy (a friend of a friend) who paused in the middle of a conversation at dinner, looked me in the eyes and randomly said "It's a blessing" it was weird, and I didnt know what he was talking about,, until he said "..you're eyes, you look like a princess" I said "thank you!that's so sweet" and that was it.

On my way home from the dinner.. Literally 30 seconds after I said bye to them, and stepped out of the restaurant.. an old-ish man comes up to me and said "please, miss, wait".. I thought he would ask for directions or something so I stopped. And he said "you have amazing eyes, so sweet, so pretty, where are you from?" (I've been dying for attention, to feel beautiful again.. to get stopped in the street like I did a few years ago.. so I was happy, and not creeped out at all) I said "aww thanks!" and gave a friendly smile. He asked me if I wanted to go get a drink somewhere, and that's when I got scared - "no thank you, I'm just 17 years old.." he pressured me a bit, so I started walking and he said "No, dont be scared, I promise I'm a good man, do you have pierced ears?" then he brought out earrings and almost forced me to accept them as a gift (they're still in my jacket) we talked for about 5 more minutes until I got really creeped out and made an excuse and ran. 2 minutes later I recieve a voicemail (I did not give this man my phone number!) BUT yet, it was from him. It had to had been. It was the conversation we had just had RECORDED somehow and sent to my phone, I ran as I cried, and now I got home just 20 minutes ago.

It was scary, might not sound like it, but I'm really really scared. I can not tell my parents, jut this morning they told me not to go out, and I said "you're so freaking scared of everything, how can you live life like that??" I will never be allowed out again. I already have to be home at 6 pm, and cant go out unless they've talked to the firned, know her parents and are assured there wont be any guys, if I tell them.. my very vague definiteion of a social life will be over.

So what is this? Someone's trying to tell me that its good that I'm not beautiful cause when I am creepy men come up to me? That I should appreciate not being pretty cause it might lead to rape someday? That I should never go out ever (this is the first time I've been out in forever, it was in broad day-light for gosh sakes!) why me? howcome others can be pretty and go out, and the once I do it.. this happens?

I DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING, can you please help me understand what's going on here? Is it all just coincedences??

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(Rating: 5) Thank you! You brought up some good points and seem to know what you're talking about.
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