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First off im f/16 (if that helps :D)
I am in this wonderful relationship with my boyfriend, who happens to be my best friend as well.
For a background story, i met him in 9th grade when he was in 11th, we became best friends, we finally got together and been going out for little over 5 months.
Anyways I am in completely LOVE with him, although some may say sixteen doesn't know true love, I am more than hundred percent sure that he is the one i love truly with all my heart.
My problem is, i've always had this some sort of "commitment issue" but don't get me wrong, I am way past that and over that ever since i am with my current boyfriend.
But that is also a backdrop to me pushing off someone I love. To make this long story short, I freak out and just push my emotion to max.
For example, tonight we met up at the football game in our school (we barely get to see each other because he is in college and lives pretty far away and i cant drive), (i dont know if it was caused by me PMS-ing but) I saw him and he said he was going to church near my house after the football game and he asked me if i can go, i said only if your friend would give me a ride. He said probably not without asking him (which i expected kind of) but i guess I was already kind of ticked off from my family and other stuff like getting rain POURED because it was tropical storms coming, so I kind of took it out on him and got mad that he wouldn't even bother asking before saying no to me. (I know it's totally my fault) and I left him hanging and all that, and I started crying and i did tell him it wasnt him but I was still acting like a baby and such.
So I finally got to talk to him and he said everything was alright and that he is not mad at me at all but sometimes I feel like I am going to act upon my emotion like this again and just keep pushing him away slowly.
So what is wrong with me? Am I bipolar or something? (family history... I dont know if that's genetic) Why do i freak out and just push off the one i love the most? How can I handle myself better? Because even the littlest thing sometimes really get to me and I start going off and stuff.
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(Rating: 5) Aww thank you so much you really helped out :)