heyehy i'm ashlee
most people call me ashlee but i personally like ash. i'm 14 and i live in connecticut, i have the most amazing friends ever. i'm not perfect one bit, i have many things about me people don't know, i have anxiety&&depression i was diagnosed with my anxiety when i was about 7 but i had it since 5. my depression was last year and it was so scary, i love to help people with any type of problem they may have. back in 1st grade my best friend and i actually had a fix fight club, when two people were fighting we would help them sort it out haha
E-mail: omgitsashlee3@hotmail.com
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Location: connecticut
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13/f. I think I am depressed and its not helping that everything is overwhelming me and stressing me out. Also I'm going to say before hand that I know most the things on here don't sound like a big deal but keep this in mind; I'm a person who gets stressed out at the most littlest things. So please, please understand that I'm having trouble here.
1. I am super stressed. nervous, and scared about going to high school for the first year. Most my friends are excited but I'm not. I'm rather shy, so its hard to make friends. And I've been working my butt since 7th grade, to get the social life I have now in 8th grade, which is practically no where. I have friends, but only 2 of them we actually make plans with each other and stuff. I am scared that I will not be able to make friends in school next year. I am terrified to the point where I will just start randomly crying from thinking about it.
2. We have to do this thing for our foreign language classes as part of the end of the year exam, where you leave the middle of class to go to your language teacher and you have to have I believe 4 conversations in the language you take with them. Well, you were also supposed to go to a few practice sessions which counted as a grade. I didn't go to any because I just kept putting it off and before I knew it I couldn't. I am pretty good at the forein language class. I went down and she asked why I didn't go to any and I told her the same thing I told you, that I was putting it off. And I apologized and stuff. Lucky for me she was SUPER nice about it. She did not get mad or anything. She just told me to go to a practice session Friday (today) and stay after another day to do the talking thing with her. I wanted to just get the talking thing over with, and I understand 100% that I put myself in this situation and that it's my fault I didn't go to practice things. Well, I was soo stressed about the practice session that I begged my mom not to make me go to school today. She let me stay home.
3. We got back interms and I'm failing a ton of classes. My grandma passed away in late April and I missed a few days of school to go out of state for her funeral and I was so stressed about the work I missed that I failed a test I missed (that I was making up later) and didn't get some assignments she never gave me but I didn't ever know about them. I'm failing 2 classes, not doing so well in 2 other classes, and doing good in the last 2 classes. My mom is not mad at me but she wants me to work harder to raise them up but I'm very stressed out. I do not want to go to summer school which is manatory if you fail at least 2 classes which I am right now so I NEED to get my grades back up.
4. My dance recitals on Sunday and I've been working, so, so, hard to get the dances down. I've got one down but the other there are a few parts I just can't get no matter how many times I practice it and people are explaining it, I forget it within a minute! I'm working SOO hard in dance but I'm so scared to mess up on stage infront of hundreds of people. Also at the parts I can't get, I look at the people around me but it's hard to keep up with them.
5. I have been lazy lately. Not feeling really up to what I usually like to do. And I know thats a sign of depression. I also know loss of appetite or gaining appetite is. I eat a lot of junk when I get home from school. ALOT. And I'm skinny not fat or anything and I think I'm pretty so I dont have NO self-esteem or anything. But I'm scared I'll get fat but I just can't get myself to put the junk down and eat healthier things. I'd never ever let my self go anorexic or bulimic though.
6. My homework is overwhelming. I put little effort into it too. I know its my fault. I don't care how much you say everything going on here is my fault because I know it is, that I'm the one that got myself here and put myself in this situation. I just can't handle it all. Please help me. What should I do, how do I fix it?!
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okay well im super stressed about high school also, i think most people are just some put a brave face on better than others, i don't think oyur depressed i just think your stressed out about everything,you need to take a deep breath and organize everything,sit down with a paper and pen and write what you need to do like you foreign language thing, thats top of your list and each time you finish one cross it off and reward yourself like with something you like. you will become less stressed and you will feel a lot better
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