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I have no friends. It would be impossible to try and tell me to "try and make some friends." Because I've been trying for years. I've been part of so many groups of friends, but sooner or later they've done something horrible to me, so I change groups of friends. Now, there is noone left in the school that I haven't tried to be friends with. I hate Lunch. Because I'm thin, the people at my table call me anorexic. And I just find people in general, EVERYONE is annoying to me. So lately I've been eating in the bathroom because thats how much I hate everyone. I also eat in the bathroom and skip my classes and sit in the bathroom because somehow, in every single one of my classes, I sit next to someone who's sick, and I don't want to get sick because a.) whowants to be sick? b.) my mom won't let me stay home if I get sick and c.) I can't work out.
But thats only half of my problem. Today I came home and I started to talk to my mom about my problems at school, like usual. But then she flipped out and yelled, "Stop complaining! Maybe you should just kill yourself because thats the only solution!" And THEN she took away the thing I love most- my exercise bike. She said that I can only work out 1 hour a day every OTHER day. (For no apparent reason.) It may sound weird, but I love to work out. I live for it. It gives me self confidence, and its one of my only hobbies.
I have been depressed, and I've thought of killing myself before. But now that my mom actually sugguested that I should kill myself, it makes me feel even worse. Especially since I'm being punished (exercise bike being taken away) just for being depressed. Is there any advice you can give me to help me make it through?
P.S. Do not sugguest that I see a therapist, or I will rate you a 1. My mom would probably hit me across the face and ground me for 10 years if I even mentioned the idea of getting professional help. Also we can't afford it.
www.kidscrisis.com [sp on crisis ?] go to chat w. a counselor they can help. and you dont have to pay OR seem them weekly or anything - i used to go there all the time++have a reg. counselor
(Rating: 5) Thanks, I'll try it.