Wow, it might sound strange but reading this has made me feel alot better because that is exactly how i used to feel, i was so depressed but never told anyone my feelings and my mates always said "Oh, your always so happy and smiley" when really i would be feeling depressed and would have so many other thoughts on my mind.
I suppose im still like it a bit, in the fact that i dont tell anyone my feelings, but im not depressed anymore.
By not tellling anyone your feelings, your locking everything away inside you, all those horrible feelings, thoughts and worries are locked away inside you, meaning you are constantly thinking about them. The best thing to do is tell your mates, paents etc. your problems, but i know that you are not gonna do that, and i totally understand why, like i said, i dont tell anyone my feelings either.
Well, advicenators is a great place to start, whenever you have a problem that is making you depressed you can ask about it on here, it will help, because you will be telling people about your worries and fears, and are likely to get an answer that will help you solve them.
But, what I think is the best idea, is to keep a livejournal. Just log on www.livejournal.com to get one. I have one, and some of my friends read it, when i was depressed i would write how i felt in my diary, but i would try to make it sort of funny, but at the same time showing that i was upset and angry. My friends read it and it really helped me get through everything, because I knew that they knew how i really felt.
Once, i even wrote a really deep entry, no funniness in it at all, i know that my friends read it, and it feels good to have let them know how i really feel, my worries and my fears ... etc.
If your friends really respect you then they shouldnt turn against you just because they find out that you are feeling a bit depressed at the moment.
If letting your friends read an online diary seems to scary a thought to you, then still make one, because other members of the puclic who own livejournals will be able to read it, and you may even find someone who feels like you, so you can read their diary and talk about your feelings, you know, sort of get through it together.
When you're with your friends, still be smiley, but try to talk to them about little problems you have, so they can get to know the real you. IBut whatever you do, dont tell them really big problems and go around all sad and grumpy, just because i have told you to friends in on your feelings, walking around all sad will just make you feel sorry for yourself and you will end up being more depressed.
So, start a livejournal and tell your mates some problems, and although it may take some time, you will stop feeling depressed.
Remember, the key to solving this problem is to tell people about how you feel, whether its through writing in a livejournal, using advicenators or telling a freind your fears, it will all help.
Hope i helped, xxx
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