Im 20 years old, I have faced many obstacles and problems that I have had to go through alone with no help and the help I recieved wasn't ever any good. I have faced women problems, friends moving, suicide, killings, deaths, car accidents, sibling rivals, fighting, weird hobbies, my best friends being raped. I have been through a little of everything and I was the one many of them turned to so I like to help out.
Hobbies: I do a lot of work in recording studios, and video/editing studios so I know film pretty well. I am a director/producer. Thats what I am in school for, to further my knowledge of set production for I am a pre production wizard. I read a lot so I have knowledge. And more.
Education: I graduated at the top 15 percent of my class in high school which was college prep, and right now im in my 3rd year od college. I have an AA degree in media arts, a 6 month screen writing certificate from NYFA. I am 11 months from my BA in FILM and HDTV, and I am a semester away from an International Business Degree.
SO if you have any questions im polite and easy to talk with and you can ask me any question you have, I will be honest no matter what.
E-mail: spin18@aol.com
Gender: Male
Location: New Mexico but live in AZ
Occupation: Sudent/Film and TV Producer
Age: 20
AIM: Tightwireprod
Member Since: January 15, 2004
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All right, I'm a relatively healthy (physically and mentally, I hope) young woman. I've never been intimate with a man. However, I've realized more and more that violence turns me on. For instance, when I see rape on TV or in a movie, I feel myself becoming aroused. When I fantasize, I always have these dark fantasies where a man is hurting me and forcing himself on me. It's not like I don't appreciate or crave romance - I do! Why am I having these thoughts though? I don't want to be hurt or violated or anything, but it just turns me on. Is it all right? Would a man be freaked out if I shared this with him? Would he take advantage of me? I've always thought I was a "good girl". (link)
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Dear Thoughts,
Thoughts of that nature are not anything to be ashamed of and are acutall=y pretty natural for both males and females. Just because you become aroused by such thoughts doesn't mean there is something mentally wrong with you. It's all natural, when it comes to fantacies and sexual venture the sky is only limited by your imagination. I know the feeling as well. Just out of curiosity are you the forceful one in your life? Because it is to my experience that woman that are turned on by such things are very in control in their lives and such thoughts and fantacies are their way of wanting a someone else to take control and show them a way.
Hope this helped
Christopher Lee Espinoza
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Wow, how did you know? In my life, I'm always the strong one, the one who always does the right thing, who everyone thinks is hard and unfeeling. People are always telling me I make them feel useless because I have so much purpose in my life. So, yes, maybe that's part of why I always feel this way, think this way. Thanks for your advice. It was extremely helpful.
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