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I really need some advice, and I am open to ALL people to give me their opinions and advice, I have never been so depressed.

On Boxing night a few days ago, we went down to my brothers for dinner, everything was grand. My brother is a keen taker of drugs, but I never was really into them, I tried them once or twice, but thats it. He offered me some and I refused, as the night went on I got more and more drunk with the family, and he offered again while I was getting ready to go out and club with my friends, and in my drunken state I accepted to E tablets, and took them in the bar when I got down with my friend James.
The night was a blur, apparently I was falling all over the place, talking crap and generally making an ass of myself. In the end I collapsed outside the bar, couldnt talk and had to get taken away in an ambulance, with all my friends looking on,most of them in tears, concerned about my state. While James came out, didnt tell anyone what I had taken and went back in to club. My brother phoned up the hospital and checked me out, knowing well what I had took, my parents where oblivious, and have lost a son over a year ago to suicide, so they are always concerned about out well being, and I couldnt ask for better parents. Adding even more guilt on my part.
I went back home and my mate shorti had a fight withmy bro, andI shorti left in an angry and upset state, me running after him. And I got atacked with a glass bottle across the head.
Tpcut along story short all my friends where disgusted at me, but relaised I had made a mistake and forgave me, I aint a druggie, I have taken them three times b4 (i am 21) and I relaise more than everthat this was three times too much. My best friend david is disgusted at me, he told me I made a big mistake and now he wont even reply to my text messages. We have been best mates for year, and we have been through a lot together, more than I can say. But he refuses to talk to me becasue of what I did, but dont we all make misatjkes, and arent friends meant to be there to help us help when we fall, even if it is our fault, he hates me right now andit is killing me, I havent stopped crying, andmy lifeis awreck, I feel undescribable. I love him so much, and I hate the fact that I am such a gulable person and thought I would play "hard man" to my bro and take drugs, i need advice about my friend, what should I do???

Ok, well if I were you I would tell him how much u love and care for him and tell him yur not a druggie and you are not planning on doing it again. Then, if he still wont forgive you I would tell him a true friend would forgive you for your mistakes and help you move on and get better.

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