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ok well im 14 and i have been a cutter since i was 12. im also anorexic. i have been since i was like 10. i also have trouble eating infront of people, when i have to eat. i just get nervous and very self concious when i eat around other people. even my parents. im 4'10" and i currently weigh 94 lb. i want to get over my cutting and eating disorder SO BAD! i have tryed forever but just run back to them. i think about suicide a lot, espically after this year. this year i lost a lot of friends. 2 died in a car accident on the same day and 4 killed themselves. it has affected me badly.
now i am addicted to cutting. i cant feel the pain anymore. no matter how much or how deep i cut. ive tryed the rubber band thing but it doesnt work. if you have any ideas on how to stop then please answer. i rate high. (link)
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I know no matter what anyone says, nothing can ever change an addiction or the way you feel. a few years ago when i was a freshman in highschool, my gooooood friend (we'll call her sally) and i got involved in helping out with the varsity boys team equipment and stuff for things to do after school, a boy on the team went out with her for a while and she's the type to get real trusting real fast.. too fast. they broke up and she started cutting. it broke my heart because i couldn't do ANYTHING to help her stop. I wanted to make her feel better but the absolute onlyyyyyyyy thing that made her feel better was to cut herself. After she did, she felt ashamed though. She would hide it under a adidas arm sweat band or a long sleeved shirt. Friends started catching on and whispering, it just ruined her life even worse, the hole just got deeper and she couldn't find a way out. I was the only one who understood how she felt and didnt scold her for cutting. I understood that self affliction was her way of a release of tension. It was her thing. Maybe its your thing. your way of dealing with the numerous losses in your life. I can't tell you how to live your life because I'm a complete stranger to you, but I have helped my friend *sally before, she stopped cutting herself and yah she did the rubber band thing but friends and family stepped in and private counseling sessions helped her work her way to getting better. Maybe that is something you could possibly try to help your addiction? It sounds scary to think that you might need someones help to get over this, someone other than another teen on advicenators, but its true hun. what would your family do if you ever cut too deep? how would your friends act? you'd just be another to kill themselves.. one more gone.. You're too young to have to deal with this much pain, and i can tell you're beautiful by the way you wrote your question. Maybe that is another way to ease the pain. writing. Its just an idea. as for your anorexia.. thats another thing that you can't get over quickly by yourself. im sure a ton of people have told you this but.. everyone eats, its normal. you can't survive without it babe.. try and keep ur chin up hun and if you need absolutely anything dont hesitate to ask, i promise i will try my best to help you out sweetie. Its hard, but it can't hurt to try.
I'm very sorry about the losses in your life.
Goodluck with everything, hope i helped.
-brittany
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