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Well im a 16 year old female.. yesterday my aunt died.. no clear reason why.. she basically went brain dead when she fell over in her flower bed.. she was only 33 years old.. okay i was one the first people to arrive at the hospital and i didnt think it was something serious like death i thought it would of been like she was working to hard and got real hot or something.. cause my aunt was always a hard worker she'd work 16,18 hour days and still made time for her two kids 3 and a 7 year old and her husband she didnt sleep very much so thats what i thought happened.. turns out im completely wrong and i feel so stupid.. i mean yea im sad she's gone but i never thought about someone dieing like that.. i couldnt sleep last night i kept thinkin bout her which i know is normal.. and then last night i jus felt really horrible cause i talked to my boyfriend and he is always there for me and he made me laugh a couple times and then when i got done laughin i felt like i shouldnt be happy.. i know moving on will not easy for me cause ill always miss her and have her in my heart but i feel bad for mainly my family like my grandma and grandpa her kids and her husband.. i have alot of tuff big guys in my family including her husband.. and that was the first time i seen alot of them tuff big guys cry yesterday that just hurt me more.. i also seen her in the hospital bed.. i thought she actually had a chance of living even tho the doctor said she had a very low chance of living i had so much hope in my heart and then wheni seen her all the hope was crushed cause i knew that wasnt my energic happy hoppy aunt.. i never seen my aunt still in my life.. she was always like a big kid.. well ever since yesterday i havent felt my self at ALL.. i mean seriously i feel like i want to change how i am towards people which might be for the best cause im really a bitch but now i dont want to feel hateful like or mean towards anybody..and now i wanna make sure i have peace with everybody cause ive always been a big fighter.. which of course sounds good cause fighting isnt good or being hateful.. but im okay with changing those things i jus dont want my whole personality to change.. cause im really outgoing and i love to be fun... i jus dont want to become shy and boring.. so does this happen to people thats what i want advice on.. like will i change.. im going to try not to but can it happen and me not realize...? Ill rate high promise.. (link)
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honey dont worry about it im sorry that your aunt died and it seems you are to but the world dosent stop and you shouldnt change who you are b/c your aunt died i think you should stay as you are and the way your aunt remeberes you and about begin a bitch that me 100 percent and people wouldnt have me any other way love sweet apples
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