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Okay. This is what I go through, about once a month, sometimes more/less frequently. I start changing. I really don't know what it is, it's hard to explain. But I'll try.
It feels like my heart is becoming empty. Like I'm becoming hungry, or like I'm enraged, or like I'm in love (they all feel the same to me.) You know, that feeling. In my heart. It feels like something is trying to change me from the inside, like trying to change my personality. My personality is weird. I think differently. I have no mental problems. O__o;;
I'm thinking that maybe my way if thinking is correct and maybe....God....doesn't want me to know whatever it is I know. Anyway. Back to what happens. The first time it happened, at my friends house, I started getting the feeling and for some reason I knew what was happening almost immediately. I started crying and pounding my chest really hard and saying "Don't change....don't change...." And I was grabbing anything to pound my heart with, I almost went for the silverware ;_;
My friend was really concerned xD I don't think she had any clue what was happening.
The second time, just recently, this happened again, only it wasn't as strong. I have gotten rather good at fighting it. But then it felt like there was a pressure in my head...like something was gently squeezing it.
This isn't puberty. This is something weird happening to me and if it has happened to anyone else I would like to know. I would also like to add that I am not insane. This is a FEELING, not a twisted thought or action. My apologies for the length of this question. (link)
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Because this is such a strange and unusual emotion to feel, (probably not many people who read this will be able to relate), you need to ask this question to an online psychiatrist who is free. It can be hard to find sometimes but go to google and advanced search and type in "free psychiatric advice" or something to that matter and see who could help you out because I wouldn't be able to begin to explain to you what's going on. I don't know how many people here will be able to help you except to reccomend you get professional help, not because of a chance of psychoness or anything, but because this is an unusual matter. Or maybe you have insurance and can see a real psychiatrist doctor, or see your school counselor. All these confusing negative and positive imbalances of feeling empty, hungry, angry, and loving all at the same time could signal the early stages of a personality disorder. Good luck, I hope this weird experience passes with no problems.
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Rating: 4
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Excuse you, I hate the opinions of all psychiatrists and would never go to one if somebody paid ME. You don't seem to understand what I mean by love, rage, and hunger, and it seems I couldn't explain it to you if I tried. I rated you a four because it was detailed, but this actually really pissed me off.
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